Zx_ - depression. Lyrics

Yeah, silver lining's got my fucking desperate
Fucking lying to my soul again
Not doing fine right now, yeah I confess it
And overthinking mind will fucking bend
But this my truth, yeah my disease
I destroy myself with such an ease
And I'm falling to the ground and I'm begging please
I don't wanna be caught, yeah, feeling helpless
But I fall like leaves on trees that breeze
And I'm plead to a god that I hope that sees
Will you give me strength so I can be
Free from my mind, not in depression
Yeah, I'm fighting demons putting words to paper
I don't know what the fuck to do I'm helpless running, tryna 'scape her
It's hard as fuck to tell these things
When I don't hear the words I sing
I'm fucking drowning, suffocating
Never will, see you later
Yeah, she's in my head and it breaks me down
Hear our song and it breaks me down
Moving on now and it gets me down
Feeling fine then I'm not like how
First you're here then you're not like "Ciao"
Chug my beer then I'll leave this town
Let's face it, no one really wants me around right now
(Keep your head up)
It'll be okay
But that's that shit that they always say
How the fuck am I supposed to be alright
When I'm trapped in my mind, can't fake being fine
And the time is passing by, day by day
No change in mind and it's all the same
Guess my own worst enemy is the thoughts I face
I should leave this world without a trace
Yeah, silver lining's got my fucking desperate
Fucking lying to my soul again
Not doing fine right now, yeah I confess it
And overthinking mind will fucking bend
But if you really cared you'd hit my line
Cause I think about you, yeah all the time
Was my love a crime, did I cross a line
Hope you're doing well, but I'm not fine
Yeah I'm pour shots tryna drown the pain
And it floods my cup like the pouring rain
Ain't joking now, this ain't a game
This depression kills me all the same
Yeah, they say if you love something you let it go
Gotta be a man yeah, don't let your emotions show
But how the fuck am I supposed to be alright
If I keep this shit bottled up inside
Acting normal is my fucking lie, yeah so here I go
I'm a broken man who gives way more than he takes
Putting others first is my toxic trait
Spending time for other who will never make
The same effort back so my heart still breaks
Wish I didn't grow up so fast
Stop chasing fun, only chasing cash
It's true only nice guys finish last
And I'm way too quick to give a second chance
But I learned these lessons
Through time and pain and suffering
I'm tryna live my life and stop my stressing
I'm focused now there's no more guessing
I'm rising now from my destruction
Rebuilding my life like construction
No giving into my oppression
No more time for my depression

Yeah, silver lining's got my fucking desperate
Fucking lying to my soul again
Not doing fine right now, yeah I confess it
And overthinking mind will fucking bend
But this my truth, yeah my disease
I destroy myself with such an ease
And I'm falling to the ground and I'm begging please
I don't wanna be caught, yeah, feeling helpless
But I fall like leaves on trees that breeze
And I'm plead to a god that I hope that sees
Will you give me strength so I can be
Free from my mind, not in depression
Yeah, I'm fighting demons putting words to paper
I don't know what the fuck to do I'm helpless running, tryna 'scape her
It's hard as fuck to tell these things
When I don't hear the words I sing
I'm fucking drowning, suffocating
Never will, see you later
Yeah, she's in my head and it breaks me down
Hear our song and it breaks me down
Moving on now and it gets me down
Feeling fine then I'm not like how
First you're here then you're not like "Ciao"
Chug my beer then I'll leave this town
Let's face it, no one really wants me around right now
(Keep your head up)
It'll be okay
But that's that shit that they always say
How the fuck am I supposed to be alright
When I'm trapped in my mind, can't fake being fine
And the time is passing by, day by day
No change in mind and it's all the same
Guess my own worst enemy is the thoughts I face
I should leave this world without a trace
Yeah, silver lining's got my fucking desperate
Fucking lying to my soul again
Not doing fine right now, yeah I confess it
And overthinking mind will fucking bend
But if you really cared you'd hit my line
Cause I think about you, yeah all the time
Was my love a crime, did I cross a line
Hope you're doing well, but I'm not fine
Yeah I'm pour shots tryna drown the pain
And it floods my cup like the pouring rain
Ain't joking now, this ain't a game
This depression kills me all the same
Yeah, they say if you love something you let it go
Gotta be a man yeah, don't let your emotions show
But how the fuck am I supposed to be alright
If I keep this shit bottled up inside
Acting normal is my fucking lie, yeah so here I go
I'm a broken man who gives way more than he takes
Putting others first is my toxic trait
Spending time for other who will never make
The same effort back so my heart still breaks
Wish I didn't grow up so fast
Stop chasing fun, only chasing cash
It's true only nice guys finish last
And I'm way too quick to give a second chance
But I learned these lessons
Through time and pain and suffering
I'm tryna live my life and stop my stressing
I'm focused now there's no more guessing
I'm rising now from my destruction
Rebuilding my life like construction
No giving into my oppression
No more time for my depression