ZKKRYMRNO - WhAt ArE yOu DoInG hErE Lyrics

Did you fall apart to get where you are?
Have you climbed out of a hole in the place of your heart?
Did it hurt when you fell all the way to that hell?
That seems to be constantly haunting every one of my cells
I'm ashamed of this skin
How the fuck do you live
Like the world isn't always trying to kick in your shins
I've been hard on myself I know
I'm just an animal
Looking for my purpose and a reason to live

I'm just trying to pretend, that when everything ends
I'll have enough of myself left to appease my friends
Bittersweet, and I guess
Once this hole in my chest fills itself
I'll finally find some rest

I laugh a lot for someone
Who always seems to be numb
Try to talk myself up with my teeth on a gun
The muffled words won't come out
With no room in my mouth
The metal shape just seems to make all of the wrong fucking vowels
I hope that you understand
That it was never the plan
To fuck myself up to the point of having ice cold hands
I'm a mess and I know
I'm sick of my aching bones
But i seem to have found solace from the words in your throat

I'm just trying to pretend, that when everything ends
I'll have enough of myself left to appease my friends
Bittersweet, and I guess
Once this hole in my chest fills itself
I'll finally find some rest
I see you're drinking alone
But I need you to know
That I've become infatuated with the skin around your bones
Sip your liquor slow
I can drive you home
I just want to be the one that stands by your throne