ZAVIONTHEARTIST - THE BOYS II Lyrics

My homie used to have elaborate dreams
Stem fields was the path if it wasn't for trash women hurting his feet
He would've been trailblazing
No goals he couldn't reach
But now he blunts pain with the bundles of weed he pleads can't do anything
I don't judge I'm just saying
Domestic violence damn near domesticated
And from my observation
You're depressed and anxious
I wish you would just say it
It's hard to feel it
When the high hits
And your skies lift
And you're pitted against
Your anguish
I know you hate this
how your life's diminished
But I don't wanna hear that it's up and finished

My bro with a brat
That he treats like a queen
Focused concerns on little things
The perfect example of a king
But beloved killing for a love he's never seen
That he

Look
I had a brother
We bonded off recent relationships
We used to sit in the car
Look up at the stars and wonder what it's all for
Laughing away painful sores
Phil Collins was the radios score
Now I'm forced to ask why I have so much remorse
He told me in this in confidence
He couldn't be real friends with someone bisexual
And this was when I was closeted
Now if we ever talk and that's not often
It reminds me that we only had those memories
Cause he thought I was honest
When I was scared we'd be demolished
If I told you about a potential partner
Wed be departed

Speaking of departed
My right hand abolished
To the point I don't wanna speak about it
So I won't
Just know my mentality won't bend
And you're dead to me as a friend

Speaking of friends
Lamarcus
Damn I failed you
All I did doesn't help you
Our interactions can't be that impacting
I know if I explain what's concerning
You'd have to console which is soul burning
Last time could've been the last time
Last eye to eye could have been a last cry
It makes me jittery
To write this because any day could be an ending
I'm sorry I wasn't there when you were lost
Sometimes I forget what could be the cost
And I can't worry about it all
I'm only one man I'm not exceptional
I don't tell you I love you
And I apologize
I can't be your crutch
And I apologize
But I try to pick you up
After I surmise
How the hell do I not see it
Until it's goodbye
How the hell do I not see it
Until it's goodbye