Zanda Elwood - Wondering Lyrics

Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I let you down, down
Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I'll turn around, round

I'm still wondering what you think of me honestly
You say that it's the phoney me every time that you're phoning me
Say I'm different and im not the person I used to be
I feel dead but my soul is stuck somewhere in-between
My touch is different, you noticed when we were creasing sheets
You say I'm hollow and empty but something's buried deep
The weight on my chest is heavy I can barely breath
Popping pills has me confused with the fake an real
I've never been the one to say how I feel
Feeling deranged - caught in the rain and the pain is real
Poppin' pills, snorting cain hoping to someday heal
I used to write my raps to express - now I'm overdue
You know who you are - I wrote this fuckin shit for you
I'm still stuck in this pit of darkness - you
Gave me a match - I'm too scared to ignite it
Hate where my life is I close my eyes and pray for blindness

Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I let you down, down
Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I'll turn around, round

I'm still Tryin' to get my weight heavy - scattered so I blame the lean
Sitting drinkin' cheap henny - I've seen shit that you wouldn't beleive
Man I don't know where I'm going next
The devil tells me "rest the rope on my neck"
When im gone will they love me? That's the shit I don't stress
Protect my fam like a game of chess - with them I'm so blessed
Forget the rest I could make it a mess I swear to god
I was sitting down chillin' my sister sent me a text
Said I know that you're stressed I see your head is a mess
Man that shit really had me, I was nearly in tears
I'm supposed to be strong and ever show em my fears
I'm supposed to be the leader - how'd I let it slip?
I'm ashamed to say I've fallen and need to get grip

Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I let you down, down
Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I'll turn around, round

Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I let you down, down
Wonder what you think of me now
Wonder if I'll turn around, round