Zack Hurts, Ben Beal - December Lyrics

Perfect
Every second worthless
Pace around the room
Trynna ascertain my purpose
I smoke an eighth a day
Cause Being sober makes me nervous
And my circle getting smaller
Like the layers of the surface
Pure bliss
What it means to be a person
Haven't had a single thought since the first hit
What a great purchase
The city looking different since I left
Yea this feelin is the best
Time for sleep when you're dead
Which I
Prolly am having trouble with the function
Fuck another dream need a nightmare for substance
Cant sleep
When your lying in the dungeon
Pick my face up off the floor
Because I'm always up to something
Keep running been fucking up like I mean to
Know nothing I'm fronting when I believe you
Push your buttons this drug is meant to deceive you
I keep telling myself that I never need you
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more
Yeah I'm just waiting for the day
When I wake up and I feel better
But for now I'll smoke a bowl
And just enjoy the simple pleasures
Of my life like all my friends
And all our memories together
Cause I'm tired of being sad and cold
And lonely in December again
And I
Don't wanna bring you down to my level
Cause I
Don't wanna feel like I'm the devil
Sitting on your shoulder
Just to tell you that your special
Just to watch you go and fuck it up
And tell yourself never again
And I cant tell you when Im really feeling down low
Cause I'm afraid you'll judge me for all of my sorrows
Sometimes I think about not waking up tomorrow
But I been down for so long so Ill drown it in this bottle
I'm sorry for my insecurities and my frustrations
I'm tryna find a way to go back to being ok and
I know that I been currently ignoring all this pain and
I been drinking and I'm tired of fixating on it
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more
Yeah
Been patient
But my brain is on vacation
Hard to color in the lines
All this time been tracing
Face it
Shit is not a jog
This a race
When the gunshot sounds
Better fly
Stay adjacent
And I'm faded
Listening to Faces
I cant predict the future
But I'm feeling quite impatient
I'm painfully complacent
All this energy is wasted
Just goin through the motions
And I'm tired of the same shit
Been home
But I need to leave
When the walls start talking
Gets hard to breath
Stir crazy
Still waiting
For some shit thats never happening
Floating down shits creak
Doggypaddling
Lapping him
So alone
But I wouldn't say that I'm lonely
I'm taking it day by day
But the clocks ticking too slowly
I'm talking to myself
Just to have a conversation
I'm tired of being home
Got me feeling suffocated
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more

Perfect
Every second worthless
Pace around the room
Trynna ascertain my purpose
I smoke an eighth a day
Cause Being sober makes me nervous
And my circle getting smaller
Like the layers of the surface
Pure bliss
What it means to be a person
Haven't had a single thought since the first hit
What a great purchase
The city looking different since I left
Yea this feelin is the best
Time for sleep when you're dead
Which I
Prolly am having trouble with the function
Fuck another dream need a nightmare for substance
Cant sleep
When your lying in the dungeon
Pick my face up off the floor
Because I'm always up to something
Keep running been fucking up like I mean to
Know nothing I'm fronting when I believe you
Push your buttons this drug is meant to deceive you
I keep telling myself that I never need you
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more
Yeah I'm just waiting for the day
When I wake up and I feel better
But for now I'll smoke a bowl
And just enjoy the simple pleasures
Of my life like all my friends
And all our memories together
Cause I'm tired of being sad and cold
And lonely in December again
And I
Don't wanna bring you down to my level
Cause I
Don't wanna feel like I'm the devil
Sitting on your shoulder
Just to tell you that your special
Just to watch you go and fuck it up
And tell yourself never again
And I cant tell you when Im really feeling down low
Cause I'm afraid you'll judge me for all of my sorrows
Sometimes I think about not waking up tomorrow
But I been down for so long so Ill drown it in this bottle
I'm sorry for my insecurities and my frustrations
I'm tryna find a way to go back to being ok and
I know that I been currently ignoring all this pain and
I been drinking and I'm tired of fixating on it
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more
Yeah
Been patient
But my brain is on vacation
Hard to color in the lines
All this time been tracing
Face it
Shit is not a jog
This a race
When the gunshot sounds
Better fly
Stay adjacent
And I'm faded
Listening to Faces
I cant predict the future
But I'm feeling quite impatient
I'm painfully complacent
All this energy is wasted
Just goin through the motions
And I'm tired of the same shit
Been home
But I need to leave
When the walls start talking
Gets hard to breath
Stir crazy
Still waiting
For some shit thats never happening
Floating down shits creak
Doggypaddling
Lapping him
So alone
But I wouldn't say that I'm lonely
I'm taking it day by day
But the clocks ticking too slowly
I'm talking to myself
Just to have a conversation
I'm tired of being home
Got me feeling suffocated
I'm just so wasted
And I cant take this anymore
I feel so vacant
It's like my pain just took control
I've just been waiting
For someone to help me off the floor
I cant help thinking
That I've been craving something more