Z3nsoul - Dinner Table Lyrics

I was taught to
Bow my head and pray over the food that's in front of me
And be thankful for that meal

Im learning to be grateful for what's on my plate (Uh-huh)
Thanking God I aint have to starve today
Cause I know there's someone in the world in a worse position than me
Got so many blessings I choose not to see (That's facts)
Fall in front my alter to show my gratitude (Thank you)
Life got better when I healed the attitude
That I had towards (Comparing myself)
People who seemed happier, like they just won an award
Or someone who blew their black card at the Louie store
Shit got me thinking yo
The reason why im living, what im thankful for (What is my purpose)
15 years I started drinking yo (That's real)
To suppress my emotions they wasn't shrinking tho (Drinking my pain)
In those moments I knew the other way (I didn't)
Thought I was gonna burn in hell for being gay (Shit had me fucked up)
Every night got on my knees prayed
Asking God if it can just pave the way
To get on on the right track

I dialed the number but never got a call back
So now I wonder
Wasn't it even worth all that
Now im under
Couldn't see what we all lacked
I had to fall back
And put myself first is what chu call that

Got all the pieces just waiting for em to fall into place
Nip said it a marathon, don't feel the need to race
But I'm addicted to success like a baby when she had her first taste
Of a lollipop or a chocolate cake
I want more, I want better
I wanna create something that can last forever (And die a legend)
So it can be hard for them to move on
Like Anna K said you're gonna miss me when I'm gone
4 quarter I'm gon shot
I got nothing left to lose
I had enough time to sleep
Some cannot walk in my shoes
So don't talk
Labels will stalk
I'm finna be known from jersey, atl, Cali, and New York
And then
I'll take it over seas
Write until my fingers bleed
I'm what world needs
On bigger a stage than SOBs
I know
It's gon happen
Last few months been tunnel vision
No time for distractions
Is how She made it in rapping
Ima manifest this shit I swear to God

Yeah I know I know
I needed to record that
It's my time I'm on go
Put my whole soul in all tracks
I follow, follow
My heart until I'm called back
Until I die, I will feelthevIB3
Put myself first is what chu call that