Z H I N O - Grandad Lyrics

Yeah
Okay
Uh
I know I was a young kid
I was violent, always trying to act like I'm suttin' big
Fights in school, breaking rules it would break my mums heart
But the heart of the house was at yours from the start
I would play up, Nan screaming like get down them stairs
You'd be shouting too your voice shook the house, I was scared
I would never show the fear in front of my peers
A little four foot something, just facing his fears
Curry goat cooking, uh
Or was it salt fish
Running round your house reckless
And you should know this
I looked at you like a dad, but you was moaning
About how the food was not ready
My nan like, it's steady cooking
That food was the proof
Let's not get started on that pudding
Apple crumble crumbled down bad vibes, I was looking
Always sneaking out a bigger piece
My vision from young my g
You was like eat bwoy
Nan was steady cussing me
You would cuss da Tees acting like a dad with full custody
Nan would bring out honey, you would sting and start bugging me
Anyway, I am getting dressed
Didn't help with that shoe horn
That small walk away rung bells and a big horn
Nan tried to stop it but you grabbed it and you hit me
Silently crying to myself, I wish you missed me
Nan tried to stop it but you grabbed it and you hit me
Silently crying to myself, I wish that you missed me

Cuz you hurt me grandad
That disturbed me grandad
Wish you was calm and collected
Cuz that burned me grandad
But damn, yeah
You the man of the house
I guess this the type of shit my mum be talking about
Cuz you hurt me grandad
And that disturbed me grandad
Wish we was calm and collected
Cuz that burned me grandad
But damn, mm
You the man of the house
I guess this the type of shit my mum be talking about

Fast forward a lot of years
You and Nan come and see me
You got dimentia, cancer, high blood pressure and diabetes
But you still going cuz you ain't remember shit
It be hard thinking bout it your the captain of the ship
And I'm now cooking for you
Damn how the power moves
You gotta piss every second and nan was pissed from that too
And you still looked the same, but my nan was growing older
Every wrinkle meant stress, looking after you was a boulder
But them two weeks in September, I swear we all remember
I had broken up with my girl from the stress
And I remember you was
Stuck in hospital like some really bad condition
The heart of you had been damaged, so we in critical condition
Your the rock, so we did the eyebrow raise like Dwayne
And my cousin died that brought the family even more pain
And the aunties arguing about who gone' look after you
Instead of doing partings, mum was there never parting you

Cuz it hurt us Grandad
That disturbed us grandad
Wish you was feeling cool
Cuz that burned us grandad
Cuz yeah, damn
You the man of the house
I guess this the type of shit that family worry about
Cuz it hurt us Grandad
That disturbed us grandad
Wish you was feeling cool
Cuz that burned us grandad
Cuz damn, look
You the man of the house
I guess this the type of shit that family worry about

Now you are back at home, I have to face the pain
Looking at you weak like, will it ever be the same
The same house I ran around didn't look the same
I'm glad we had that talk though, it really helped the pain
It really helped my brain
It really made me sane
Asking questions brought me home
And I will never be ashamed
It really helped my brain
It really made me sane
Asking questions brought me home
I will never be ashamed

Cuz I love you grandad
No one above you grandad
I wish you was feeling cool, but I still trust you grandad, uh
You'll always be the man of the house
I guess this is the shit that family bout
Cuz I love you grandad
No one above you grandad
I wish you was feeling cool but, I still trust you grandad, uh
You'll always be the man of the house
I guess this is the shit that family bout, yo

But there was one day Amarae, maybe about two years after he passed
And I used to think about him all the time, but in a good way
I was sitting practicing in my flat
And I was practicing along to this instrumental music
This, this band
This band that I was into
And as I'm playing, I just stopped and I burst out crying
And you know what
And it was weird, I burst out crying because
I remember the album was erm
As a say it was this band, Casiopea
But my dad gave me five quid for Christmas
You know five quid was a big deal back then
Gave me five quid to buy this album
Cuz its all I wanted for Christmas
So I bought the album and I was top of the world
And I loved it, I loved that album
So when I was playing all of the sudden I just
Honestly just felt really weird and burst out crying