YCK - The Best Way Isn't Always the Easiest Lyrics

Chosen, the easy way leaving at a speedy pace
Got my goals and got my dreams I never deviate
And stray too far from roads I take when things are feeling awful strange
I'm not unique I'm not a trend but I can be replaced

They can live without me when the earth is in rotation
And the buildings in the city sky producing that serration
Maybe no results and maybe taking out frustration
I've been building up for way too long I've made my preparation

How many times do I gotta smoke to feel alive
And how many times do I gotta hurt myself to die
All too much at once I never knew the reason why
I just know I want a place with my space that I supply

I always wonder
I want a solution
I build these walls high
It's just an illusion
I'm not swimming I'm falling free
Well there's no limits to bother me
Yeah I promised that nothing's wrong
But it's been hurting for on and on

Flipped a switch in my attempt in turning off my brain
Such a burden now I'm learning where I get the thoughts I think
I've got it I sent a cry for help but no responding
To my notice they forgot it and I know they never bought it

Cut too deep I've come to see I'm wasting every week
I'm a freak and social nightmare hiding back the want to speak
Crush my heart into a hundred thousand tiny pieces
And I cherish every stitch and fiber all the minor creases

How many times do I gotta smoke to feel alive
And how many times do I gotta hurt myself to die
All too much at once I never knew the reason why
I just know I want a place with my space that I supply

I always wonder
I want a solution
I build these walls high
It's just an illusion
I'm not swimming I'm falling free
Well there's no limits to bother me
Yeah I promised that nothing's wrong
But it's been hurting for on and on