Ya Msanii, JustTroy, JClay - Vishuddha (Throat Chakra) Lyrics

First of all I can't lie
Why
My Moma said don't even try
I'm
Singing this lullaby
And I don't really wanna cry
But trying to help you open up your minds eye
I
Do declare
In the beginning I wasn't too prepared
I couldn't see myself cause I was too aware
Of everybody else and how they super player
But, the game I was in, it was more like Atari
I felt outta date outta place outta space
And my roll in my movie didn't star me
Didn't feel like a God that had Angels like Charlie
Or getting one love like Bob Marley
Now over 40 and instead of a midlife crises
I'm the life of the party
But In those dark days I shark waves
Played games like arcades
Any girl I could partake in was really all parque
Then I felt my heart break
It felt like a sharp stake
That moment I realized with real eyes I was a yard snake, a yard snake.
So had to change
Cause I already had the change
Felt sick that I was acting strange
All because I was feeling a lack of fame
So I racked my brain
And I changed my story
Now I sang my story
In all of it's pain and glory
And So real that you can ignore me.

When she walked in
I seen it all with my two eyes
Us ruling over the blue skies
African clothing
No suit ties on my neck like a noose
Mansa Musa
We was on elephants ridin
I was no Kemet Poseidon
She was no feminine remnant of ammit
Love was the common
We hade the settlement thrivin
That was our first conversation
She took it in back and forth while she's pacin
Like how can we do what he's mumbling
Inside of a country that celebrates
Birth of a nation!?!
Cause they just regurgitate hatred
And movies like purge are their favorite
I told her we come from a people
That never complained of the pain
And emerged as the greatest

You're not alone
I was molested
By my own sibling
He never confessed it
It's wasn't lonzo
It was my step brother
Did it when I was an adolescent
Twelve years older than me
I'm at home fellin free
In the zone with my toys
And he showed me his D
Grabbed my hand
And put it over his knee
Grab my neck and put it close to my cheek
Told me not to tell a soul in the street
When your seven
You don't know how to speak
On the happenings
And going's on in the week
I just knew something was wrong underneath
Mom was at work
And my dad wasn't their
If he was
That's an R.I.P. song for this creep
I left it all up to Allah to complete
My bro was in prison
Yo Karma's a beast

Back when I had been sedated
More like self inflated
I always moved like I had some truth to prove
Kind of like I was instigated
I was just misbehaving
More like mis-creating
I was trying to remake what was already made
Dang I miss creating
From that place of love
Where you do just cuz
You ain't worried bout the cash
Or the buzz or the gas
Take the bus
Because that's enough
Every moment got its moment, blink fast
I'm not here to own it, think that
Bless don't curse
Plus put yourself first
So that, everything lasts
Ayy, everything's a blast
But don't focus on that
Peek beneath your mask
You can focus on that
Be free
No task can promote you to that
Just be like gas
There's a slogan in that
You can let time pass
But that's none of my business
I'm here eternally for the endless
Not to deny what isn't