Xyavier the Second - Pain Lyrics

Yeah
It's been a hell of a year
Yo
Whoever said it's easier as time goes by fucking lied
The amount of times I've dried my eyes just today
Still climbs
I been here and there and down many roads
This the road that's unknown
It feels unreal, feel so alone
I Feel the chills straight to the bone
Stepping out of the war zone into the rain
Only find out you can't wash away pain
All this kush in my lungs and I'm still here
I'm swimming in these bottles till I can't feel fear
Till I cant feel this pain
Till I can't fucking feel anything
Don't ask if I'm okay
Imma lie anyway
I'm really lost in the dark since I've lost you
Wandering around so lost without a clue
Wanna loose my shit, loose my cool
Telling myself that's the right thing to do
With all this rage
Running through the veins
Running from the pain
Never get a break
Heartbroken
From the words that I didn't get to say
Wasn't supposed to be this way
I cant stop shaking
Going insane from the fuckery
Truly tired from this long ass journey
Struggling to find the will to go on
Struggling to connect with my own damn songs.
I know how it is when there is no light
At the end of tunnel and it don't shine
I know how it is when the sun doesn't shine
In the darkest parts inside
I heard em say
The greatest love equals your greatest pain
And if you remain
You'll grow stronger from the change
My heart is stained
So no matter the change, no matter what remains
Il still be feeling this pain
As if it was yesterday
I'm really lost in the dark since I've lost you
Wandering around so lost without a clue
Wanna loose my shit, loose my cool
Telling myself that's the right thing to do
But I know you wouldn't want me to
I know
You wouldn't want me to

Yeah
It's been a hell of a year
Yo
Whoever said it's easier as time goes by fucking lied
The amount of times I've dried my eyes just today
Still climbs
I been here and there and down many roads
This the road that's unknown
It feels unreal, feel so alone
I Feel the chills straight to the bone
Stepping out of the war zone into the rain
Only find out you can't wash away pain
All this kush in my lungs and I'm still here
I'm swimming in these bottles till I can't feel fear
Till I cant feel this pain
Till I can't fucking feel anything
Don't ask if I'm okay
Imma lie anyway
I'm really lost in the dark since I've lost you
Wandering around so lost without a clue
Wanna loose my shit, loose my cool
Telling myself that's the right thing to do
With all this rage
Running through the veins
Running from the pain
Never get a break
Heartbroken
From the words that I didn't get to say
Wasn't supposed to be this way
I cant stop shaking
Going insane from the fuckery
Truly tired from this long ass journey
Struggling to find the will to go on
Struggling to connect with my own damn songs.
I know how it is when there is no light
At the end of tunnel and it don't shine
I know how it is when the sun doesn't shine
In the darkest parts inside
I heard em say
The greatest love equals your greatest pain
And if you remain
You'll grow stronger from the change
My heart is stained
So no matter the change, no matter what remains
Il still be feeling this pain
As if it was yesterday
I'm really lost in the dark since I've lost you
Wandering around so lost without a clue
Wanna loose my shit, loose my cool
Telling myself that's the right thing to do
But I know you wouldn't want me to
I know
You wouldn't want me to