Xxavi - L i f e Lyrics

Hi I love you Xxavien
Hi Nunu

Is this shit on?
Life's a bitch, I been through it more than a tampon
I never needed green to see the snakes on my lawn
I'm a Rivera/Garcia grandson
RIP Baby G

Luisa
Santos
Javier
Y Antonia

RIP Abuela
I was named after you
And now I'm missing you more than my siblings missed their curfews
Refused the news about you
That shit had me in shock
Deja vu from the day my uncle got shot on the block
Damn
Dad told me "keep things bottled up"
So I call him Pop
We fuck with J Lo but
Momma's always Jenny from the block
Moving rocks from block to block like we playing hopscotch
One button got these niggas dropping like they drop tops
If I'm sending shots they connecting like my hotspot
If you want smoke I'll turn your block into a hot box
I'm sorry Momma
I'm sorry Pops
You know my anger is like the time
It can't be stopped
I know you're proud of me
I know I'm filled with oddity
My mental is so mental it puts the psycho in psychology
Don't bottom feed on rotten seeds
I wanna see these wanna bees try to be me
Admit it
Y'all could never be me
Y'all just desperate for some credit like a GED

Whats his name? Xxavien my love
C'mon Xxavien
I know you can do it. You can do it Xxavien, We can do this
Si? Si? Tu eres de Papi?
Xxavien?
Xxavien Javier Garcia, it even rolls off the tongue

Xxavien I wish you the best
I hope when you grow up you turn into a good man
A hard working man
I hope you finish school
I hope you be a good kid
And to know how to be obedient
And to love and care for your family and friends
Xxavien I love you with all my heart
You're my baby

I heard you Momma
No complaining, life's a test that none of us been acing
Seen my parents drift apart like it was segregation
Frustrating, I blame myself for them separating
There's a saying, like compound words you two can use some spacing

I ain't holding back
Chilling with my uncles where they smoking at
Babysitting me while dealing packs like I ain't know whats that
Its nothing new, look at you
Niggas this is what y'all choose
In and out of jail every year, y'all playing peek a boo
Never needed sympathy
Niggas ain't believe in me
Family making fun of me while going through obesity
Frequently seeing shit I ain't wish to see
Kiko tried to hang himself to be with god like ornaments on Christmas trees
Pops I know you did it too, so please don't act low
If it wasn't for Pichon catching y'all like parole
We would see y'all through a hole and we ain't talking peep holes
Y'all don't need a die, we ain't rolling celo

Life is full of gambling, risks I could handle em
Imma put Boricuas on the big stage like it's Hamilton
Its challenging, balancing everything that be happening
Never need a shot to get my point across like javelin

Almost caught a heart attack
Pucho was in cardiac
Now we watch him more than Telemundo in the cart he at
He taught me how to fight
He taught me what are (Water) hoes
His definition was different from where I washed my clothes
So broke, I wished for pennies anytime I spoke
I wished for family any time they wrote
Hand written messages
Family times I reminisce
Telling me to stay in school while they complete their sentences

I'm paying attention and making a difference
We livid about our position
I'm given a mission to give us a living
Inside of a system thats make us the victims
I did it. I got my degree
First in the family tree
I broke the cycle like my pops chemo therapy.
Thats life