Xxavi - In This Room Lyrics

Locked in this room for a lil minute
If I don't leave this bed I can't expect this nightmare to finish
I'm feeling
Real ill
Real still
I can't move and I fucking hate it
When taking steps in life I move quick to escalate it
Niggas feels complacent
Like a doctor on the clock I'm running out of patience
I'm running out of patience
My hearts full yet my mind is empty
It's been 2 months
I haven't talked to mom
I'm sorry Jenny
Trying to talking to you is like leaving this room
I still ain't ready
For my thoughts no one gave a penny
Wheres Xxavi?
No asked that question
Then they wonder when they hit me up it's such aggression
When they hit me up they never asked about depression
When they hit me up they never had any perception
It's lessons
Lessons
Lessons that I've learned
If they don't wanna check for me there's nothing that I'm worth
If they don't wanna check for me then take me off this earth
If they don't wanna check for me then I'll never
Leave this room
I kept it together without the glue
Can't hold myself forever when the glue was always you
And by "You"
I meant myself
Myself with better health
Myself when I'm myself
Myself when I'm not someone else
I'm going crazy
Feeling real differently lately
I held my hand out, and no one dared to try to save me
So let me stand down
And be a man now
Silence makes the most noise
Don't make a damn sound
And so I thought
But I was blamed for acting different
Blamed for staying quiet and blamed for always acting distant
I was told
By my ex
And then she left
So unexpected, especially by her. I wont respect it
This is never ending
Who's next up on my checklist?
Who wants to take my love and then reject it?
Who wants to see my pain and then neglect it?
Who wants to hear my thoughts and disrespect it?
Who wants to have a phone thats never texted? Cause
That was me and thats the truth
I'm Feeling dead but see no tomb
I'm Seeing red but feeling blue
I lost everyone but found myself
In this room
As human beings
We fail to realize the gift of life is fragile
And we take the presence of others for granted
Especially loved ones
You may not realize it but
There's someone out there or someone you know that could use your help
They may act like they are okay but
Deep inside they know they aren't
We aren't the type to speak up
I say "WE" because I was once in those shoes
Some are lucky enough to get through it on their own like I did
But thats a very rare case
So please
Check on your family, friends and loved ones
Because there might be one who feels like they're trapped between walls
And please do your best
To take them out that room

Locked in this room for a lil minute
If I don't leave this bed I can't expect this nightmare to finish
I'm feeling
Real ill
Real still
I can't move and I fucking hate it
When taking steps in life I move quick to escalate it
Niggas feels complacent
Like a doctor on the clock I'm running out of patience
I'm running out of patience
My hearts full yet my mind is empty
It's been 2 months
I haven't talked to mom
I'm sorry Jenny
Trying to talking to you is like leaving this room
I still ain't ready
For my thoughts no one gave a penny
Wheres Xxavi?
No asked that question
Then they wonder when they hit me up it's such aggression
When they hit me up they never asked about depression
When they hit me up they never had any perception
It's lessons
Lessons
Lessons that I've learned
If they don't wanna check for me there's nothing that I'm worth
If they don't wanna check for me then take me off this earth
If they don't wanna check for me then I'll never
Leave this room
I kept it together without the glue
Can't hold myself forever when the glue was always you
And by "You"
I meant myself
Myself with better health
Myself when I'm myself
Myself when I'm not someone else
I'm going crazy
Feeling real differently lately
I held my hand out, and no one dared to try to save me
So let me stand down
And be a man now
Silence makes the most noise
Don't make a damn sound
And so I thought
But I was blamed for acting different
Blamed for staying quiet and blamed for always acting distant
I was told
By my ex
And then she left
So unexpected, especially by her. I wont respect it
This is never ending
Who's next up on my checklist?
Who wants to take my love and then reject it?
Who wants to see my pain and then neglect it?
Who wants to hear my thoughts and disrespect it?
Who wants to have a phone thats never texted? Cause
That was me and thats the truth
I'm Feeling dead but see no tomb
I'm Seeing red but feeling blue
I lost everyone but found myself
In this room
As human beings
We fail to realize the gift of life is fragile
And we take the presence of others for granted
Especially loved ones
You may not realize it but
There's someone out there or someone you know that could use your help
They may act like they are okay but
Deep inside they know they aren't
We aren't the type to speak up
I say "WE" because I was once in those shoes
Some are lucky enough to get through it on their own like I did
But thats a very rare case
So please
Check on your family, friends and loved ones
Because there might be one who feels like they're trapped between walls
And please do your best
To take them out that room