XOTHISGIRLISACURSE - I WANNA Lyrics

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

If it's a mistake then it's mine to make
I said things would be better by December
But the weathers cold and bitter, biting at my throat
To my hands and the tips of my fingers
Numb numbing and nothing
I feel nothing- this nicotine is making me nauseous
This winter feels like a knife to my chest dragged down to the pit of my stomach
Fingers numb, numbing, nothing
Fumbling in public tryna light a cigarette
I'm not ready to go yet

You gotta want it man, have that desire
Keeps me warm, fuels me like fire
Isn't it funny, ironic I know
Knocking at the devil's door like I told you so

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

Sitting on the porch step, kill another pack of cigarettes
Putting together all the pieces of that night- I forget
Lost to memory, a melody
My misery loves company
And that is why I'll never be alone
So here I go, now you know

If the world's a stage, welcome to the shitshow
Fuck it up, fill my cup
Guess I got some good luck
Like bad luck? That sucks- not like I give a fuck

Like a shattered mirror, I am something you should fear
Label me handle with care, while I prepare to pounce
Like a rabid dog all teeth gnashing on nothing- numb and numbing. i feel nothing.

Any way it's going down, I can feel it coming now
Keep on fallin' hit rock bottom
Throw me down a shovel and I'll keep on diggin' deeper
Seasons don't fear the reaper, I told ya I befriended the enemy
You haven't seen the best of me
Ya haven't seen the rest of me

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

I wanna need rehab, I wanna meet god
I wanna fall from grace so hard I know just what I lost

A lie like an offer, a truth like bait
Some might call it fate or karma
But I know better than that- call out your bullshit facts
Don't you see that I'm a cancer? I can fuck you up forever
Tear your heart into pieces, rip it out and just leave it
Pack up my shit and run, like a circle I go back where I came from

This winters bitter and biting, things should be better by December
But it's cold, numb, numbing, nothing.
I feel nothing.