xkinsey - Chroma Within The Nuance Solid Lyrics

I keep comparing you to me
I see what I cannot be
I don't know how to break the cycle
It's vicious and it hurts yeah I know
I don't know what to do about that
It kinda gets me to clap back
Be better than myself before that
At the same time, I can't control it

I know I'm faded, I know, but hey, fuck it
I know I'm faded 'cause I follow the same instructions
Afternoon walk right home after college
Look at the people that have a better life than I know
While wonderin' what I'm doin' here
Get home, go straight up to my little collection of unknowns
Really thinkin' bout takin the whole lot
Ain't no time for second-guessin'
Just get down and get to business, oh

I didn't come to rebel
I came to fit into hell
That's why I wear this shit
Big boots and black jackets, yeah this is not punk
I'm not punk I'm a scumbag
I'm something, not nothing I'm alright
With bein' a statistic 'cause I deserve it
I bitch but realistically I'm just yearnin'
For somethin' to burn me give me reason to feel
Outside my mouth burnin' heal from the spill
Alcohol on my breath I'm ready to be your kill
'Cause I'm done it's not fun thinkin' that I'm real

I quite like it back here
I don't have to worry about me
And as it happens I can come here whenever I please
I don't like to fight or cry
But I do the latter I do and it's a pain
Who would guess? Not me
I don't see the point in crying out
There's no one there, I'm lonely
'Cause I said I'm all I need
Why me? You brought this on yourself your misery
I'm not that bad, but I hate it here
I'm under lock and key and goin' mad