XJ Rayn - Ulterior Lyrics

Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?

I like to think I'm honest
But to tell you the truth I've lost it for a while now
The failure to be modest
I'm going loud but I can't say that I'm proud
To know you is a blessing
But blessings can take form under the cover of lies
Cause I've built this bridge
With foundations and measurements all out of the wrong sizes

Time goes on
Never to mention
In my eyes
Fearing the question

Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?

My tongue is of a serpents
How did I get this far I simply don't deserve this
I wanted to be different
But the thoughts I've had have denied my chances
I need to be reminded
Take you for what you are and not what you could be
A mind that's double-sided
How can I ever be myself if everything is not what it seems?

Time goes on
Never to mention
In my eyes
Fearing the question

Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?

And how dare I
I'm so sorry
How dare I
I'm hoping you can forgive me

Time goes on
Never to mention
In my eyes
Fearing the question

Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?
Have I been ulterior?