XINCLAIR - I'm Sorry I Couldn't Save You Lyrics

I hate myself for the shit I did
I hate myself for the things that I should have done instead
I hate myself for the times that I wasn't there for you
I hate myself for the lies that I ever bared on you

Can't you feel the change?
My heart's turning numb I feel like my veins are pumin' with novacane
Im sorry, and I mean it, I swear this wasn't meant to happen even though everything happens for a reason
God what's the meaning I ain't seein' one, I wasn't much for believing but I'm prayin now 'cause somethings wrong
Everyone just says the same shit you gotta stay strong
But I would rather be dead than feel this way for long
Two wrongs don't make a right they make another wrong
I knew this all along but I still kept on picking the wrong
So I deserve this, but why not me?
You took away the only thing that ever made me happy
I wasn't prepared for this to end so badly, can't I go back
I got so much to say, please just let me do that
But I can't, it's too late, it's sealed my fate
The wise man once said nothing at all
But I ain't listen 'cause I'm screaming, won't you answer my calls
I know that you aint gettin' them, just can't accept that you're gone
But no matter the dusk there's always gon be dawn
So I'm gon' see you soon I promise that I'll keep on, I promise that I'll keep on yuh