Xay - Forever With Me. Lyrics

Dear Grandma
I’d never imagined, that I would’ve started rapping
You always told me to follow my dreams, & follow my passions
If I led with my heart, you knew I could make it happen
Anything I posed, is everything I imagine
And honestly, I only started rapping, to free my thoughts
Dreams of being a star, while blasting off with astronauts
Defying the rules of gravity cause I never believed in laws
Cause Richmond PD, would have us all behind bars
So I gotta tell these stories, cause no one can tell em for me
Send encrypted messages, in verses like allegories
Sentences of my sins, kept me balanced within
And I never crossed the line, with the stroke of this pen
But I'm blocking every blessing, cause I'm fighting with depression
When I see ya daughter cry, that’s a different type of stressing
Sometimes it's hard for me to embrace, to see the look in her face
Struggling to keep the balance, of losing my faith
Dark nights in the rain, a lot of pain that I blocked out
Shaq in the paint, yeah the way that I boxed out
My thoughts, of ever being enough
Guess this how it feel, to be diamond in the rough
And I noticed, in spite of my lowest moments
When my back against the wall I get more determined & focused
All my dreams became lucid, when I was afraid to lose it
Gave it everything I had, and put it all in this music
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I strive for greatness, if it's less then I don’t say shit
Let these words flow out, while my thoughts is navigating
To release all this energy, in hopes they remember me
Spread my audio thru they mac, like this a trap symphony
My homie lost his mans, while my nigga off the xan
While he coping off the coke, I got the xanny in my hand
I’m trynna understand, everything in the world
Fix my problems with my girl, through my actions of my words
Sorry I get long winded, every time I start venting
Let my emotions spill out, with every verse that I'm lamenting
It's almost like I'm asking for forgiveness, with each sentence
Knowing I can’t be stopped, like I was apart of no limit
Dwelling on past memories, change comes with consistency
No matter how far, I know you there within proximity
You ain’t need a halo, I always knew you was my angel
And I don’t wanna die to see heaven again
But I ain’t see the blessing, using these words as a weapon
From my childhood memories, my thoughts of an adolescence
Where my heart on my sleeve, whenever this ink bleed
So when it bleed on the page, I let burn like confessions
And it's hard for me to feel alive, when you feel like you dead inside
Had to let that pain fuel me, with every verse I summarized
I know we ain’t supposed to make it past 25
But I know you forever with me, watching me from the other side
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies

Dear Grandma
I’d never imagined, that I would’ve started rapping
You always told me to follow my dreams, & follow my passions
If I led with my heart, you knew I could make it happen
Anything I posed, is everything I imagine
And honestly, I only started rapping, to free my thoughts
Dreams of being a star, while blasting off with astronauts
Defying the rules of gravity cause I never believed in laws
Cause Richmond PD, would have us all behind bars
So I gotta tell these stories, cause no one can tell em for me
Send encrypted messages, in verses like allegories
Sentences of my sins, kept me balanced within
And I never crossed the line, with the stroke of this pen
But I'm blocking every blessing, cause I'm fighting with depression
When I see ya daughter cry, that’s a different type of stressing
Sometimes it's hard for me to embrace, to see the look in her face
Struggling to keep the balance, of losing my faith
Dark nights in the rain, a lot of pain that I blocked out
Shaq in the paint, yeah the way that I boxed out
My thoughts, of ever being enough
Guess this how it feel, to be diamond in the rough
And I noticed, in spite of my lowest moments
When my back against the wall I get more determined & focused
All my dreams became lucid, when I was afraid to lose it
Gave it everything I had, and put it all in this music
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I strive for greatness, if it's less then I don’t say shit
Let these words flow out, while my thoughts is navigating
To release all this energy, in hopes they remember me
Spread my audio thru they mac, like this a trap symphony
My homie lost his mans, while my nigga off the xan
While he coping off the coke, I got the xanny in my hand
I’m trynna understand, everything in the world
Fix my problems with my girl, through my actions of my words
Sorry I get long winded, every time I start venting
Let my emotions spill out, with every verse that I'm lamenting
It's almost like I'm asking for forgiveness, with each sentence
Knowing I can’t be stopped, like I was apart of no limit
Dwelling on past memories, change comes with consistency
No matter how far, I know you there within proximity
You ain’t need a halo, I always knew you was my angel
And I don’t wanna die to see heaven again
But I ain’t see the blessing, using these words as a weapon
From my childhood memories, my thoughts of an adolescence
Where my heart on my sleeve, whenever this ink bleed
So when it bleed on the page, I let burn like confessions
And it's hard for me to feel alive, when you feel like you dead inside
Had to let that pain fuel me, with every verse I summarized
I know we ain’t supposed to make it past 25
But I know you forever with me, watching me from the other side
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
Cause I’m everywhere
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies
I’ll be right here
Even when I’m not there
You ain’t gotta search far
(Cause I’m everywhere)
You was there (For me)
You believed (In me)
From the skies