Xander Oberliesen - Easy Way Out Lyrics

I never realized how much I'd miss you
My head is filled with so many goddamn issues
I need to find a way out a way to cope with my pain and endless doubt
No one ever said it'd be easy but I'm dying here please why won't my god help me?
I need to find a way out a way to cope with my pain and endless doubt
I can't take this for much longer
Please God can I have a little saving grace?

I never expected it'd be easy Hell I know from experience
My hands are numb my life is done but that doesn't make much difference
I've been here before everything hurts and still there's more
More pain and suffering more pointless endless existing

I never realized what I'd do to see this through
But if it's not meant to be then why does it always feel so wrong to me?
Please don't abandon me in this my time of need
I can't take much more of this in my fragile damaged mortal soul

If Jesus has a plan for me it's screwed up beyond eternity
I'm led where I never wanted to be by my morbid curiosities
I just wanted-wanted to get out escape all my stupid stupid irrational doubts
My screwed up mental state my twisted unimpressive fate

I never realized what I'd do to see this through
But if it's not meant to be then why does it always feel so wrong to me?
Please don't abandon me in this my time of need
I can't take much more of this in my fragile damaged mortal soul oh no