Xander DMC - Wish I Could Forget Lyrics

Depressed, wish I could forget all this
Deep sin, caught up in a crypt I guess
That's where I'm gonna end up real soon
If I don't turn from this and put my zeal in You

Heavy breathing, conscious about my weakness
I'm all to pieces, I'm gone, feeling far from Jesus
And it's really not cool, head is like a monsoon
Heart feeling like a balloon
I'm so empty inside, anxiety high
And I'm wishing I would die
Dear God is my health on decline?
Lord I really need help from the Vine
I sit alone and cry
Am I less of a man?
Am I getting all the best from Your plan?
Or am I just a sham?
Lord Your tests are so grand
If You leave me on my own to pass I can't
Won't try

Depressed, wish I could forget all this
Deep sin, caught up in a crypt I guess
That's where I'm gonna end up
That's where I'm gonna end up without You
Depressed, wish I could forget all this
Deep sin, caught up in a crypt I guess
That's where I'm gonna end up
Yo, that's where I'm gonna end up

Listen
I can't continue
All the things that Austin been through
This mental abuse
It's no excuse my heart is sinful
I have done so much but not enough
Curse words flowing through my head but my mouth stays shut
And I gotta keep it like that
Unless I'm preaching Christ I don't really wanna write raps
But I feel so bad inside
I grieved the Spirit and I had the flesh gratified
But it didn't leave me satisfied
It just left me with this feeling that I have to die
So I
Turn to Christ for forgiveness
I hope that He hears me and I find repentance
Cause it's necessary and it's mandatory
And to never find it, that's a scary story
I gotta keep on climbing, no I can't avoid it
It's only through the Son's blood the Father can restore me

Depressed, wish I could forget all this
Deep sin, caught up in a crypt I guess
That's where I'm gonna end up
Yeah, that's where I'm gonna end up yo
Depressed, wish I could forget all this
Deep sin, caught up in a crypt I guess
That's where I'm gonna end up
Yeah, that's where I'm gonna end up

Lord
Father forgive me
My conscience has been bothering me
My thoughts are sinful
Honestly, I'm not pretending
Without You with me I am nothing but a Godless enemy
See the waves swallowing me when I cross the Red Sea
And it don't end
Dear God I am broken
Your Word is what I need to soak in
Cause in You there is power to change
I need help and forgiveness, shower me with Your Grace

I'm so lost
Soften my heart, dear God I'm flawed
More than that though, I need Your Cross
I need You, I need You

I'm so lost
Soften my heart, dear God I'm flawed
More than that though, I need Your Cross
I need You, I need You