Vxlious - Lessons Lyrics

I've been alone for to long
Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs
Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong
On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong
I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent
I need to be patient but want to take action
I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless
Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons
Know that I'm impatient but I feel like I deserve it
All these b*tches want my attention but without purpose
Getting older everyday I see couples I'm getting nervous
When will that be me cause lowkey I am feeling worthless
Is it even meant for me cause I don't see it happening
Keep on drinking bottles and bottles filled up with medicine
Every time a lady talks to me I feel adrenaline
Hoping that she'll be the one
Don't know what is going on
Everybody seems to fall in love
Looking all around I see empty cups
I am throwing up yeah
I am throwing up
There are tears in my face and in my red cup
I've been alone for to long
Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs
Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong
On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong
I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent
I need to be patient but want to take action
I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless
Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons

I've been alone for to long
Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs
Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong
On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong
I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent
I need to be patient but want to take action
I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless
Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons
Know that I'm impatient but I feel like I deserve it
All these b*tches want my attention but without purpose
Getting older everyday I see couples I'm getting nervous
When will that be me cause lowkey I am feeling worthless
Is it even meant for me cause I don't see it happening
Keep on drinking bottles and bottles filled up with medicine
Every time a lady talks to me I feel adrenaline
Hoping that she'll be the one
Don't know what is going on
Everybody seems to fall in love
Looking all around I see empty cups
I am throwing up yeah
I am throwing up
There are tears in my face and in my red cup
I've been alone for to long
Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs
Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong
On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong
I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent
I need to be patient but want to take action
I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless
Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons