usually trespassing - better by tomorrow Lyrics

I been sitting on my ass so long
That I don't know where I'm going
But I guess I gotta begin
Cause I'm tired of dealing with
This dichotomy of wanting to die
While being excited to live
I don't know if waking up's
A blessing or a curse
You could make an argument for both
Either way I hope for the best
And brace for the worst
And learn to leave the rest well enough alone

Cause the mind has a mind of it's own
And it can make your fucking head spin
If you turn a deaf ear
Once you know you don't run the show
And just fucking listen
You'll be amazed at what you hear

I wish I could put as much effort
Into rolling out of bed
As I do the shitty things
Bouncing 'round inside my head
Cause I'm fucking disgusting
Can't ever discuss things
And wonder why my problems stay the same
And my misjudgements
Got me thinking nothings
Wrong as I dig myself a deeper grave

Cause the mind has a mind of it's own
And it can make your fucking head spin
If you turn a deaf ear
Once you know you don't run the show
And just fucking listen
You'll be amazed at what you hear

Can I change my habits in a day
Can I change my habits in a day
I don't know
It's getting far too much to take
Will I be better by tomorrow
I don't know

Cause the mind has a mind of it's own
And it can make your fucking head spin
If you turn a deaf ear
Once you know you don't run the show
And just fucking listen
You'll be amazed at what you hear