Unknown and Sailing - Forlorn Lyrics

Every moment
Loathing living life
It feels so hopeless
Cause there's no hope in sight
Why do I fight

Everything I seem to touch falls apart at the seems
I'm living this life but it is so far from a dream
More like a night terror
Fight fair
I'll barely survive
When I'm kicking and scratching at their fucking eyes
Mine are open but I don't think that they're open wide
I try to find my meaning but there's only reprise
I repeat and repeat yet there's still no change
Guess there's only me to blame

Why do I live my life this way
Repeating mistakes
Expecting some change
Nothing
Reshape exchange
Rearrange my thoughts
Dreaming but lost
Fear I've lost what's mine
There is nothing to find
There is nothing left of me so

Why do I live my life this way
Repeating mistakes
Expecting some change
Nothing
Reshape exchange
Rearrange my thoughts
Dreaming but lost
Fear I've lost what's mine
There is nothing to find
There is nothing left of that's why

I hopelessly live without purpose
Fearing I'm worthless
I probably deserve this
If fulfillment would surface
I promise I would curb this
Fear of facing the world
I'm misunderstood
I'd stare blank if I could
I put on this front to hide my pain
Though often in vein

God, take my pain
Renew me
I want to see this world through a new pair of eyes
No more black and white