UnderRated - My Thoughts Lyrics

Where did all the time go?
Can't message my iPhone
Cannot mess up my time zone
I grab the pistol then I put that thing to my dome
I squeeze the trigger till my vocals hit a high note
And now they gotta let all the by gones be by gones
I grab the nylon and use it to cut my arm
And now I got like five scars
I seen the snakes but still got bitten by a python
It's way too late I ain't got no shoulder to cry on
What do liars do when they dead? They still gone lie on
I ain't speaking this for the rest these are just my thoughts
I'm so used to playing pretend
Comes with a high cost
Look at all the things that I spent and all the time lost
I don't know how else I should feel but this is my fault
Makes me wish that when I was little had a time vault
And lately I'm feeling dead
And ion know what else to do so I write music instead
And ion really wanna talk
I'll write what's been on my head
I let the past become my future
Being lead by my flesh
And ion know what else do so I'm just gone disconnect
And every single time I lose cause that becomes disrespect
But when I'm really going through no one gone come interject
I think my life is living proof, I still don't know how to tread
I try to put my faith in god but feeling like it ain't working
And even if it really is who should I be to deserve it
After all the things that I've done all I've been feeling is worthless
They try to tell me read the Bible like I ain't gotta be nervous
Because I feel my spirit screaming when I walk past them churches
They always talk a hefty game it's not like I never heard it
But either way I don't feel real and my life's further from perfect
I think I've got a choice to make but I've been holding the curtains
I've been feeling hopeless, I don't know what hope is
I've been at my lowest but I can never show it
I've been sippin potion trying not to notice
Trust me this is no kizz lately I can't focus
I've been trying go in but I've been feeling broken
I've been getting toasted but either way I'm zoned in
Thinking bought the hard times and all the words I've spoken
Momma said I'm chosen then why the hell I'm hurtin?
Trying hard to see it but I can't find the meaning
Trying hard to reach it
But I'm fighting these demons
Diving off the deep end cause I can't see me peaking
Searching for a reason but it's all got me bleeding
Don't know what I needed
And don't know what I'm needing
God I really need you
I hear the devil screeching
Please just come and save me I feel paraplegic
Is this how it's supposed to go? Please don't tell me your leaving
I seen the snakes but still got bitten by a python
It's way too late I ain't got no shoulder to cry on
What do liars do when they dead?
They still gone lie on
I ain't speaking this for the rest these are just my thoughts

Where did all the time go?
Can't message my iPhone
Cannot mess up my time zone
I grab the pistol then I put that thing to my dome
I squeeze the trigger till my vocals hit a high note
And now they gotta let all the by gones be by gones
I grab the nylon and use it to cut my arm
And now I got like five scars
I seen the snakes but still got bitten by a python
It's way too late I ain't got no shoulder to cry on
What do liars do when they dead? They still gone lie on
I ain't speaking this for the rest these are just my thoughts
I'm so used to playing pretend
Comes with a high cost
Look at all the things that I spent and all the time lost
I don't know how else I should feel but this is my fault
Makes me wish that when I was little had a time vault
And lately I'm feeling dead
And ion know what else to do so I write music instead
And ion really wanna talk
I'll write what's been on my head
I let the past become my future
Being lead by my flesh
And ion know what else do so I'm just gone disconnect
And every single time I lose cause that becomes disrespect
But when I'm really going through no one gone come interject
I think my life is living proof, I still don't know how to tread
I try to put my faith in god but feeling like it ain't working
And even if it really is who should I be to deserve it
After all the things that I've done all I've been feeling is worthless
They try to tell me read the Bible like I ain't gotta be nervous
Because I feel my spirit screaming when I walk past them churches
They always talk a hefty game it's not like I never heard it
But either way I don't feel real and my life's further from perfect
I think I've got a choice to make but I've been holding the curtains
I've been feeling hopeless, I don't know what hope is
I've been at my lowest but I can never show it
I've been sippin potion trying not to notice
Trust me this is no kizz lately I can't focus
I've been trying go in but I've been feeling broken
I've been getting toasted but either way I'm zoned in
Thinking bought the hard times and all the words I've spoken
Momma said I'm chosen then why the hell I'm hurtin?
Trying hard to see it but I can't find the meaning
Trying hard to reach it
But I'm fighting these demons
Diving off the deep end cause I can't see me peaking
Searching for a reason but it's all got me bleeding
Don't know what I needed
And don't know what I'm needing
God I really need you
I hear the devil screeching
Please just come and save me I feel paraplegic
Is this how it's supposed to go? Please don't tell me your leaving
I seen the snakes but still got bitten by a python
It's way too late I ain't got no shoulder to cry on
What do liars do when they dead?
They still gone lie on
I ain't speaking this for the rest these are just my thoughts