UC - Maybe I Can't Be Happy Lyrics

Have I become what I was scared of?
Our childhoods did not prepare us
For the pain that awaits
All the rain and headaches
They never taught us how to be happy
Now most nights I wake up shaking
How much more can I take in?
I was born with this brain
Don't think I can change
Does anybody feel the same?

I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy
All I want's clarity
And all they want's to take it from me
Where do I go now
Before I break down
I could really use some help
But I'll refuse the handout
I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy

Yeah, maybe I can't be happy
Maybe everybody in the world is laughing
Yeah, but in my head, that has already happened
I'm lying in my bed just repeating my actions
Replaying everything they said to me
And I don't even disagree
Whenever someone says I love you I don't know what it means
Comparing me to all these fake people living in their screens
Staying silent, but inside, all I wanna do is scream

Feeling low and I don't know why
Some nights I feel like I wanna die
I say I'm fine, but it's all a lie
You can't see the pain in my eyes
Hide from life, that's how I get by
High at night, staring at the sky
Sometimes I can feel alright
'Til the panic sets in and I come to terms that I

I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy
All I want's clarity
And all they want's to take it from me
Where do I go now
Before I break down
I could really use some help
But I'll refuse the handout
I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy

I've reached the limit on my antidepressants
If this is a lesson, I never got the message
How am I supposed to feel happy
When I can't feel anything?

I've come to terms that maybe
I'll never be happy
And now I'm starting to think
Maybe the world's better off without me

I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy
All I want's clarity
And all they want's to take it from me
Where do I go now
Before I break down
I could really use some help
But I'll refuse the handout
I've come to terms that maybe
Maybe I can't be happy