U-Jay music - Hurting Lyrics

How, I be strugglin' to be sleepin every night
All the memories are hauntin' every time
All the people have been askin' am I fine
I'M NOT FINE!!

Since my grandma left me I've been strugglin' with my mind
Feelin' like I'm losin' it I'm in the darkest times
I've been lookin' at the fact that we all gonna die
My heart is hurtin' I feel like I lost my other half

I cannot sleep in the night, I'm feelin' like I'm carryin' the whole world on my shoulders
I'm lockin' myself in the room and I just wanna cry
I thought the pain will go but it don't happen overnight

I know it won't happen overnight
But I know with my Christ I'll overcome
I was feelin' like a dumb man ring the bell, I just wanna break off the bars

But I'll just put myself on the rail like a train
It ain't never goin' back, I know
I guess I'll just move on I guess
But I'll never forget you know

How, I be strugglin' to be sleepin' every night
All the memories are hauntin' every time
All the people have been askin' am I fine
I'M NOT FINE!!

Since my grandma left me I've been strugglin' with my mind
Feelin' like I'm losin' it I'm in the darkest times
I've been lookin' at the fact that we all gonna die
My heart is hurtin' I feel like I lost my other half

Man I never said that I'm never hurt
I'm feelin' pain and I don't pretend
But I'll never live my whole life just sad
I'm doin' this for my grandma Cath

I just saw you lyin' on the bed
I saw you takin' your last breaths
What I saw it was bizarre
I was helpless, I was feelin' scared
I was traumatized it was so bad
I didn't know what to do okay
And I keep blamin' myself okay
I did what I could do that day

But, I'm goin' forth, I ain't turnin' back
I do this for you, you better know that
I'm gettin' through, Lord give me strength
I love you gran, may your soul rest

How, I be strugglin' to be sleepin every night
All the memories are hauntin' every time
All the people have been askin' am I fine
I'M NOT FINE!!

Since my grandma left me I've been strugglin' with my mind
Feelin' like I'm losin' it I'm in the darkest times
I've been lookin' at the fact that we all gonna die
My heart is hurtin' I feel like I lost my other half

Your soul have found peace, you know I will keep on praying I will never cease
No matter how many shots will be coming I'll be still
I'LL BE STILL

How, I be strugglin' to be sleepin' every night
All the memories are hauntin' every time
All the people have been askin' am I fine
I'M NOT FINE!!

Since my grandma left me I've been strugglin' with my mind
Feelin' like I'm losin' it I'm in the darkest times
I've been lookin' at the fact that we all gonna die
My heart is hurtin' I feel like I lost my other half