TRG Sensei - Deep Waters Lyrics

Middle of the night feel myself surrounded
It's just me and my thoughts and I'm here slowly drowning
I'm swimming looking for a way to fill the pain
Remember days smiling at you listening to novacane
But, now those days are gone and I'm here by myself
All I think about's you just loving on someone else
And do you even know what that does to my mental health
Or are you just like the rest and care only bout yourself

Please give me the truth did you mean the things you say
Or was it just to cope with the struggles day to day, or
Was I just a shoulder to cry on before you dick ride
Was it ever me that resided on the inside
Was it just a lie all this time wait lemme end this rhyme
Cause I'm peaking at my limits and I wanna stop the clock
I'm stuck between a hard place, heartbreak and a Glock

And I say to god
Deep waters, deep waters, dear father
Do you ever sleep on us
Cause I feel so alone, and I wanna end my life
But before I end it all lemme contemplate the price
And I say to god

Deep waters deep waters
Dear father, do you ever sleep on us
Cause I feel so alone, I feel so alone

Story of my life it just tells a lonely tale
Of a broken soul that was in search of holy grail
Through the rapping and the drugs, confusing love with lust
Man I don't know what you heard but in the streets there's no love

Everybody says they're there for you but only few mean it
I'm demolishing these lines while you claim to read between it
This is straight from my heart give a fuck about rap
When I step to the mic all I think about's facts like how
I'm so selfless always giving all my love
And when they move on all I'm left with is the drugs
And the tears, man its stepping on my brain
Sometimes I wonder why I gotta go through all this pain

They say its supposed to build me but sometimes it tries to kill me
They say that I was born again and that its supposed to heal me
But what the fuck that doesn't help when my heart's cutting up
All these intellectual books could never smooth out the rust
And I'm tired of being rational and always using logic
I'm tired of loving bitches who just turn out to be toxic
But one thing I'll never get tired of is the chronic
Cause that's the only doctor giving real diagnostics

So Deep waters, deep waters, dear father
Do you ever sleep on us
Cause I feel so alone, and
I wanna end my life but before I end it all l
Lemme contemplate the price

And I say to God
Deep waters, deep waters, dear father
Do you ever sleep on us
Cause I feel so alone, and I wanna end my life
But before I end it all lemme contemp