Travvy, Oni Boy - helpless Lyrics

Tell me why I gotta live life this way
Tell me why every single day is the same
I'm going insane from this war inside my head
One side is alive and the other side is dead
Where do I go when I don't have anyone
Who do I call when I am all alone
I am so prone to feeling so bad
What's the point in life if I'll always be this sad
I'm scared of myself more than anyone else
Shotgun in my mouth but I ain't got no shells
I'm so self destructive
I'm sipping on this bottle 'til I don't feel nothing
And I can't really help it
If I could just escape, I'd take that shit in a second
But I can't really do all the shit that I want to
Baby girl you know that I'll always love you
I got your name on my face and that shit won't erase
All these marks are just proof that I love you
I'm so fucking helpless
I tried to be strong but I just can't take this
I hate it
I just wish you would leave me alone
Baby I been sitting here decaying in my home
And every time I call you, you won't pick up the phone
Guess that's what I get for isolating on my own

Tell me why I gotta live life this way
Tell me why every single day is the same
I'm going insane from this war inside my head
One side is alive and the other side is dead
Where do I go when I don't have anyone
Who do I call when I am all alone
I am so prone to feeling so bad
What's the point in life if I'll always be this sad
I'm scared of myself more than anyone else
Shotgun in my mouth but I ain't got no shells
I'm so self destructive
I'm sipping on this bottle 'til I don't feel nothing
And I can't really help it
If I could just escape, I'd take that shit in a second
But I can't really do all the shit that I want to
Baby girl you know that I'll always love you
I got your name on my face and that shit won't erase
All these marks are just proof that I love you
I'm so fucking helpless
I tried to be strong but I just can't take this
I hate it
I just wish you would leave me alone
Baby I been sitting here decaying in my home
And every time I call you, you won't pick up the phone
Guess that's what I get for isolating on my own