Transparent-C, Nine Up - The Conversation Lyrics

So many nights I would cry I would cry
Myself to sleep at night it felt like I wanted to die
Alone cause I messed up my life when I thought I had it all
At least I thought I had it all but I didn’t have You
I thought I was praying to you but it was fake to me
I didn’t believe You were there for me it was hard for me to see
That You were there still loving me holding me
Lifting me carrying me it so selfish of me to think You were never there
When all You did for me was care but I didn’t care
I turned my back on You and acted like that it was all fair
So I ran from You
Thought I could live my live all without You
Then I would stumble and fall and I still didn’t recognize You
When my brothers would turn to me and say “yo boy I’m praying for you”
Then I would turned my back on them and said that I didn’t need You
I was happy in love but I didn’t realize that You gave me that love
So you ripped it away cause I was so ungrateful and so undeserving
I was so full of sin and the downward spiral started to begin
And then I found myself all alone in an empty home
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
Everything got so dark I had no clue on what I should be doing
I should fought harder I should have been stronger
In fact it’s You I should be seeking in my time of pain
This rain is pouring harder each and every day
I wish it would let up so I can breathe again
Instead I ran further away
Indulging in sin every day while inside I’m screaming away
Help me help me save me today
Lord I need You, I need You to intervene
But with my earthly eyes You are nowhere to be seen
I try to talk to You, I even try to sing to You
But I keep a fence around my heart because it hurts so much
It’s broken in pieces I cry so hard with no relief
God wrap Your arms around me and tell me it’s gonna be ok
You’ve got this man here on his knees tryin to pray to You
And I just need You to make things better make my life brand new
Restore the love that was lost taken away from me
And make me that man of God for You so completely
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
I trust Your word even when things ain’t goin’ right
I dig in Your scriptures just to find to see the light
Be a light unto my path as I walk these dark roads
As I travel down these aves
Try to pull me back to the pits of hell
Tryin to get me off track
I’m the head not the tail
I’m the lender not the borrower
Above not beneath it
The truth is written in Your word
No it’s not a secret
I was in the deep end divin’
Dark waters hidin’
Try to go unnoticed but still floatin’ survivin’
They can’t see me hurtin’
I’m smilin’ like its all good
But game recognize game
Like its all hood
The weak die as the strong survive
The meek will inherit the earth
On the turf the groom awaits his bride
The one who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
In the shadow of the Almighty
See a grown man cry
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray

So many nights I would cry I would cry
Myself to sleep at night it felt like I wanted to die
Alone cause I messed up my life when I thought I had it all
At least I thought I had it all but I didn’t have You
I thought I was praying to you but it was fake to me
I didn’t believe You were there for me it was hard for me to see
That You were there still loving me holding me
Lifting me carrying me it so selfish of me to think You were never there
When all You did for me was care but I didn’t care
I turned my back on You and acted like that it was all fair
So I ran from You
Thought I could live my live all without You
Then I would stumble and fall and I still didn’t recognize You
When my brothers would turn to me and say “yo boy I’m praying for you”
Then I would turned my back on them and said that I didn’t need You
I was happy in love but I didn’t realize that You gave me that love
So you ripped it away cause I was so ungrateful and so undeserving
I was so full of sin and the downward spiral started to begin
And then I found myself all alone in an empty home
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
Everything got so dark I had no clue on what I should be doing
I should fought harder I should have been stronger
In fact it’s You I should be seeking in my time of pain
This rain is pouring harder each and every day
I wish it would let up so I can breathe again
Instead I ran further away
Indulging in sin every day while inside I’m screaming away
Help me help me save me today
Lord I need You, I need You to intervene
But with my earthly eyes You are nowhere to be seen
I try to talk to You, I even try to sing to You
But I keep a fence around my heart because it hurts so much
It’s broken in pieces I cry so hard with no relief
God wrap Your arms around me and tell me it’s gonna be ok
You’ve got this man here on his knees tryin to pray to You
And I just need You to make things better make my life brand new
Restore the love that was lost taken away from me
And make me that man of God for You so completely
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
I trust Your word even when things ain’t goin’ right
I dig in Your scriptures just to find to see the light
Be a light unto my path as I walk these dark roads
As I travel down these aves
Try to pull me back to the pits of hell
Tryin to get me off track
I’m the head not the tail
I’m the lender not the borrower
Above not beneath it
The truth is written in Your word
No it’s not a secret
I was in the deep end divin’
Dark waters hidin’
Try to go unnoticed but still floatin’ survivin’
They can’t see me hurtin’
I’m smilin’ like its all good
But game recognize game
Like its all hood
The weak die as the strong survive
The meek will inherit the earth
On the turf the groom awaits his bride
The one who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
In the shadow of the Almighty
See a grown man cry
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray
Lord I’m sorry for real
Lord I hurt You here’s the deal
Please forgive me one more time
Please help me Lord just change my life
Lord I’m sorry for real this time
For my sins each and every time
Come back in my life please today
And have Your way Lord this time I pray