Thomas Tang - Self Destructive Lyrics

I dont want no one to hold me
I need some peace from the old me
Back is the way that she hold me
Down is the way that she want me

Forward the way that im going
Side is the bitch that adore me
Seem like im moving in every direction
I keep my protection up on me

This is my life I'm the host
Remember when I did the most
Ask about me if you want
They'll say leave him-malone like he Post.

Light Iverson I become
If I have a son he the one
I gotta beware where I cum
These bitches be choosing for fun

But I aint never had no problem with women I love when I can
Wasn't the man
But when I look back on my past, I'm glad that I am who I am
Now I'm the man
Take it or leave it, somebody just left so I took it and ran
Aint have a plan, but my vision been panned
Aint have a band, but my mission is grand

Play my position
I'm luckily litty, I come to yo city and fuck up the trend
Tryna get rich off a phone in my hand
All of these riches I owe to my friends
All of these bitches I owe to my mans
All of these mentions I owe to my fans
Damn I got fans?
Playing be humble while poppin these xans, God damn

And like, boy I will forget everything off the drugs
Like the good and the bad
Shit be crazy but like...
Ion know it just help you adapt
It's Fucked Up, but it's real tho
You know, just try to remain humble with the music, all that shit
You know Remain humble, remain humble, yeah

Hearing the rumble from all of these fags.
Can I say fag?
Too late I brag
Truthfully arrogant, I think it started for real when I planted a L on my dad
Throw in a O and a L, and I laugh
Laughing Of Loud, I'm high in a trance
Don't think Im going to hell when I pass
I'll tell a crowd get right while you can

I'll tell a child too chin up and go
Rather than sitting and crying alone
Cause I done em both
I been a punk and a soldier, but failure I learned from the most
But thats how it go
Aint tryna boast
I rather tell you bout all of my lows
I'll prolly bring that shit up in my notes
But i'll never mention not one of my hoes

Im never wishing on none of my foes, for anything bad I honestly pray
Tell em a lie that I'll honestly say Cause niggas be plotting no promises made
Said I might kill em no promises made
Wait for the day to see commas in bank
I seen alot and the trauma's engraved
Musical Drama cause Thomas is Tang

Musical mother, a musical father, my life a soap opera, or more like a play. Once was a athlete, and then I start acting, cause I hid my teammates from all of my pain
I was the type to go cry in the rain. But I rather type, than go cry, what I'm saying
Sometimes I write like I'm finding my grave, find my headstone and I'm signing my name God damn

And look Ion wanna die, I swear to God
I'll live forever leave it to me forreal
If you know me you know that, but like
With life I just, I just take the good with the bad, straight up
You know, "it is what it is" you gotta learn that
It's up to you what you gone do you know
I just be feeling self destructive (Look) Ion know

This one's for the real niggas who died young
Where I from, disrespect them you get disfigured, here them guys come
I did figure how to stay alive, said a lot of prayers, you should try some
Forgive me im a real nigga, ima tell the truth, and Ima die one

Pitch game like Cy Young
Wanna ball you should buy one
Sleep with it till the sky come
And get some shots up till a high come
Shit that Ima tell my son
Everybody need a dream to live
We all gotta learn to take advantage
And know, everybody got something to give

I know I be going back and forth like i forgot something
Pulling strings till a knot bundle
Push the limit till my car rumble
Chasing light through a long tunnel
I be reeking havoc like its not trouble
Smoking havoc
I got smoking habits
I cant even eat less I spark something
Food for thought, with a hard stomach

And hard head just to coincide
My pops use to tell me go inside
I done seen so many punishments, in a harsh world, how I wont survive
Type a nigga that a die, then I prolly get to thinking how I'm gone revive
But thats me at my best
Wish for my death nigga
But Im so alive

Well, until next time

(Door Shuts)