Thesanity - Scared to Say Goodbye Lyrics

And I don't know exactly of my destiny
I'm just living, trying to formulate the best of me
And I know that God is watching he be testing me
Holding yellow flags just waiting for the penalties
And i ain't got a goal to live to seventy
And I ain't playing safe and living steadily
Walking day by day and living every single night
And simply when I go I just want people to remember me
It's hard to say but I just live on different pages
It's nothing major but It's not your average behavior
I like to separate myself from everybody's paper
And I keep talking bout this book, but I'll get to that later
It be pressure that be building and becoming greater
And i'm defenceless I ain't trained like i'm a gladiator
And everyday I'm up and down inside an elevator
Uncertain if the doors will open like the mouths of haters
I barely carry anger, but I can't contain it
When I hop onto the mic, and pour out my frustration
I just wander in my head, and talk of what I'm facing
It's the only time that I will share my thoughts of hatred
Cause I try to be relaxed, in every situation
But the negativity is like they pouring pavement
And they're never listening when I just make a statement
But I can guarantee they'll call when I have really made it
And they'll say they always knew that I had talent rapping
Even though since I had started they were always napping
And as I'm growing as an artist they continue laughing
They thinking I ain't got a rank but soon they'll call me captain
And I know I need the patience, to be everlasting
And I know need the hope to make it through the rapids
It's a marathon pursuing my own kind of passion
But It's difficult to tell when people always chatting

I understand that no one can fulfill my shoes
And I wear a lot of white to show the bleeding through
I can see my goals and no I ain't confused
But almost everyone I know can never see it too
Sometimes I drive around just to enjoy the view
And to clear my mind i'm listening to different tunes
I worry about the people that I'm bound to lose
When i truly go and live the dream that I've pursued (Ayah)
I just gotta live (Gotta live) yeah, and I just wanna thrive (Wanna thrive)
Took a look up at the stars (At the stars) yeah, and so I'm following the light (To the light) yeah
Man Imma make em proud (Make em proud) and get my head up out the sky (Out the sky)
And I don't know if I will live (If I will live) if everyday i'm scared to say goodbye (Say goodbye)
I just gotta live (Gotta live) yeah, and I just wanna thrive (Wanna thrive)
Took a look up at the stars (At the stars) yeah, and so I'm following the light (To the light) yeah
Man Imma make em proud (Make em proud) and get my head up out the sky (Out the sky)
And I don't know if I will live (If I will live) if everyday i'm scared to say goodbye (Say goodbye)
It's like i'm in my own shell, scared to make a move
I've never met my real self, except in my own room
I used to write for them, until my friend said write for you
And my mind is turning sane and now i don't know what to do
It's scary to say, but everyone live for today
You can't be fearing the end, never be scared of the grave
And live up to all your potential, live up to who should be
Find what you've always wanted to do, but never thought you could achieve
And you better truly believe, that being yourself is the key
To living a life full of happiness, living like you were just free
And that's all I want you to see, I'm not trying to make you decide
Cause it be your life, and you got a choice, to do what you want with your time, but
And I just gotta live (Gotta live) yeah, and I just wanna thrive (Wanna thrive)
Took a look up at the stars (At the stars) yeah, and so I'm following the light (To the light)
Man Imma make em proud (Make em proud) and get my head up out the sky (Out the sky)
And I don't know if I will live (If I will live) if everyday I'm scared to say goodbye (say goodbye)
And I just gotta live (Gotta live) yeah, and I just wanna thrive (Wanna thrive)
Took a look up at the stars (at the stars) yeah, and so I'm following the light (To the light)
Man Imma make em proud (make em proud) and get my head up out the sky (Out the sky)
And I don't know if I will live (If I will live) if everyday I'm scared to say goodbye (Day goodbye)
Man Imma make em proud, and get my head up out the sky
And I don't know if I will live, if everyday i'm scared to say goodbye