Symph0ny - Alone! Lyrics

Something's weighing heavy
Created too much pressure this ain't healthy
We were all good love was plenty
Now look at the cards love has dealt me

I'm all alone in my room writing songs about you
Trynna write clean lyrics to avoid hurting you but the pain that you put me through
Got me wondering if everything that you said was true
Girl
Did you know you hurt me
Did you know that you not wanting to hurt me was the reason why I was hurting
Every time I saw you it got me wondering if I was the only one who wasn't breathing
Could you hear me when I was screaming
Crying my eyes out listening to sad songs
Staring at the ceiling
Feeling like a burden on everyone's shoulder so I never spoke about my feelings and I still don't
Everything's become harder
I'm just used to everything being difficult
Hoping it gets easier but it won't but
I was stupid to think that there was something between us

And I tried
I tried making amends
I tried showing everything i'd done was wrong
I tried showing I acknowledged them added to the list of my sins
That's so hard to erase once it's already written
But I'm a burden never to be resolved
It's hard to put yourself back together when you were never whole
I never got used to you being someone I could hold
Now I'm gone

Something's weighing heavy
Created too much pressure this ain't healthy
We were all good love was plenty
Now look at the cards love has dealt me

I'm all alone in my room writing songs about you
Always trynna write clean lyrics to avoid hurting you
But you've moved on damn it didn't take long
I always find it difficult to finish the song
And I know that you don't listen
It doesn't matter the music's just a little bit
Wondering what to say
What I can do
Never occurred to me that we were through
Nothing ever stopped me wondering about you

I need your honesty
What did you see in me
What did I show that was so terrible that you had to leave
We weren't in the same room when I started to bleed
WhenI started thinking it was your goal to decieve
Anxiety taking over me
Isn't it clear that i'm not the same
Starting beef just to cover the fact that I'm not worth anything
Just another fucking lame
Just another dumb fuck who uses pills in my place.
Do I matter
No
I'm over you
I didn't waste my time but I'm so sick of putting everything on the line for people when things never become right
Losing sleep at night
Ready to give up the fight
It's that kind of thinking that made me lose sight or maybe you did
At least I could say that I tried recovering it
But I'm not lost
I'm gone

Something's weighing heavy
Created too much pressure this ain't healthy
We were all good love was plenty (It was plenty)
Now look at the cards love has dealt me
Fucking look at em

You know
You just wanna be loved
But everyone you meet you get bored of
What does that say about you
Ask yourself that question

You know what

The louder the bombshell
The harder the heart fell