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Color numb
Losing appetite
I'm so terrified just to sleep at night
It's a battle that I'll always lose
My bedroom's a prison too
Called my mama to confess that I don't know what to do

I don't really wanna go, don't wanna stay around
I don't really wanna see or hear, make a sound
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe I can't bear to be me
I don't really wanna know, don't wanna point it out
I don't really wanna show that I'm breaking down
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe I can't bear to be me

Shut up in my head
I'm my own enemy
No where I can run
Is this real? Am I me?
So numb that my eyes don't recognize my reflection
Call it post-TSD
My body detached and my face it don't match
What the fuck am I gonna do
Am I crazy, overthinking
Every night in the dark I'm a grown man crying

I don't really wanna go, don't wanna stay around
I don't really wanna see or hear, make a sound
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe I can't bear to be me
I don't really wanna know, don't wanna point it out
I don't really wanna show that I'm breaking down
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe I can't bear to be me
I can't bear to me
Shit

Shut up in my head
I'm my own enemy
No where I can run
Is this real? Am I me?
I'm fucking losing it

I don't really wanna go, don't wanna stay around
I don't really wanna see or hear, make a sound
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe...
(I'm fucking losing it now)
I don't really wanna know, don't wanna point it out
I don't really wanna show that I'm breaking down
(I'm fucking losing it now)
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe...

(I'm fucking losing it now)
I don't really wanna go, don't wanna stay around
I don't really wanna see or hear, make a sound
(And I can't turn it around)
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe...
(I'll suffocate till I'm out)
I don't really wanna know, don't wanna point it out
I don't really wanna show that I'm breaking down
(Someone please hear me out)
Everything I used to do I can't do them now
I can't believe...
(I'm fucking losing it)