Silas Price - been a while Lyrics

So many changes
Conquering all my demons and I'm letting in my angels
Rickita told me: better watch out for these strangers
Mama said same things once
Those closest to you: the most dangerous
I been anxious
Fake exchanges
Temporary arrangements
Incendiary language
Fuck being rich and famous
They know who my name is
I swear in my life I been through more shit than an anus
I ain't with the games, bitch
Niggas on the same shit
No wonder they complacent
I'm bout to lose my patience
I was struggling to pay these bills and she was on vacation
But it's my fault for being passive aggressive, wasn't saying shit
I done seen the mountaintops and I done crawled through to hell
Talking more to demons cause God ain't got a cell
Couldn't hold the tears back when I was sitting in the jail
1AM no one answering the phone, I'm by myself
Used my last bit of funds just to post some bail
I try my hardest but it seem every time I fucking fail
I question all my steps
I'm scared to ask for help
People act strange when you coming out your shell
I'm scared for my future, a little worried bout my health
I know things ain't quite right, I knew my girl could kind of tell
Probably why I been so focused on trying to build this wealth
Stains on concrete marking where my tears fell
Stop showing all your feelings dude, remember you a male
Dear God, how many times I got to take L
Fell asleep up at the wheel
Caught with a gun, weed, and a scale
How did I fall off up off the trail?
Unresponsive I went pale
Not sure if I'm religious, superstitious, or spiritual
I know I believe in something because I done seen some miracles
Pulled back from people close
Barely even speak no more
Went a week without no heat
Why would you leave when I need you most
The light up in the dark
Can't have fire without no spark
Many fish are in the sea
But you need to watch for sharks
With this hole up in my heart
Feeling like I am Tony Stark
Making sure I leave my Mark
Telling few what's going on cause they'll talk
Got it hand to me girl like your favorite nail spot
Can't believe she left my fucking key up in the mailbox
Left a couple things but she still took my damn heart
Thought we would fly high but got lost, Amelia Earhart
Took the knives up out my back but still can't help these damn scars
In just a week of time
Seen my mother cry
Four family members die
Along with three friends of mine, used to smoke, drink, get high
Girlfriend hospitalized
Had my feelings minimized
Then took a ten hour drive
Sleep deprived
Jail, walked some miles
Forty-three degrees, then I slept outside
Came home to no lights
Guess it is a lonely night
What the fuck? Why I'm crying?
When it rain it pours, no sunshine
Wish I had started up a bloodline
Was gonna work for a love life
Fuck that, I got to slide
I'm gone die for mine
Know it all sounds like a fantasy to a simple mind
Head always up but sometimes
Looking down like what a climb
Making money off of rhymes
Reading charts and plotting lines
One of one, one of a kind
Thinking: damn, what a ride
Knowing that them niggas lied
Knowing that them bitches tried
I know them bitches tried
(I bet they wonder why?)
How could you block me when I was there when you wanted committed suicide
Remember you said: it was do or die
Now you choosing guys
Who ain't ever seen your ruined times
Now you blocking me off of pride
Now you watching me from the side
Remember how you felt when we locked eyes
Imagined you as my bride
Do I need to remind
Who the one who lied
Who the one who hide
Fucking up the vibes
Know it's been some time
But you still on mind
Getting drunk day and night
Liver problems, see the signs
Feel like Chadwick with the acting
Everything is all fine (All Fine)
What goes up, will always come down
And whatever goes down must always have a bounce
Don't worry about the miss, go after the rebound
Then stunt on all the ones who questioned or gave you doubt
Stand up for what you believe in and make sure you say it loud
I love to hear my parents tell me that they say "they're proud".
I love to hear the words "I love you", it's my favorite sound
I believe in Karma; what goes around, come around
I'm the tally mark, best believe I make it count
Her water park the type to make a nigga want to drown
Just like this verse, I been going through a beat a while
I believe in love whenever I look into her eyes
I believe in trust whenever I see my Mama smile
I believe in luck if ever get a wife and child
I'm the number that they dial
When shit is getting wild
I know miss me or gone miss me
Cause I know it's been a while

I guess this just gone have to be, like, the outro or something
Journey of The Kid
We fine
The Balloon that always keep rising
I ain't giving up over here, ok?
And that means you shouldn't give up either
We keep fucking going
Love y'all
The Kid Was Here
Silas