Seeming - Monster Lyrics

Who is the monster
That swallowed up the kid
Buried deep inside
Where your heart lived before?
Who is the monster
That beats behind your eyes
Hungry as religion
Wanting more more more?

But now I wake in the back of the family car
Desert Storm on NPR
Though I am eleven
I know my depression
even better than my reflection
And I was never good with images
So I never had what it takes to
Put the visions into words
You wouldn't mistake

I shake shake shake but can't shake the dream
I shake shake shake but can't shake the dream
And now I've shed my every scale
A monster swallows up its tail
In a shape I know, but I know I've never seen

Who is the monster
Becoming all the kids?
A hot and hungry coil
With nothing at the core
Who is the monster
Pulling across the sand
Can we run away, run away, run away, love?
Isn't that what running's for?

But now I
I wake up again when I hear Public Enemy
For the first time, it's infecting me
I am weaponry made for the worst time
No no no no
Did you ever wish that decade or century
Was all just a reverie
And if every day was an ache it's okay
One day you'd wake?

I shake shake shake but can't shake the dream
I shake shake shake but can't shake the dream
And now I've shed my every scale
A monster swallows up its tail
In a shape I know, but I know I've never seen
Under the dull brown sun of life in quarantine

You can run away run away run away
You can run away run away run away
You can run away run away run away
But who is the monster?