Ron Solemn, Font Size 4 Poetry - Forgiveness Lyrics

I am not a model of forgiveness
So I guess I rather stay mad
I guess I rather stay mad
Never holding grudges is a good plan
But I guess I wanna be bad
I guess I wanna be bad

Check the vessels on my wrist
Got blood pumpin' in 'em
Got poison in my spirit
Got, gotta get a grip

Just breathe in
Just breathe in

And Heaven knows I wanna quit
But can't release the venom
And even if I did, would that neglect my feelings
That's treason, that's treason

Remember what we said
The good, the bad
I don't remember the good
You don't remember, I'm good
You can't kiss away the words you scraped into my skin
We said fresh starts but here I am with fresh scars bleeding
Said you love me but you done me wrong
I switch off the radio when it plays our song
You're the best I've ever had but
I guess I'd rather stay mad

So I got coping mechanisms to protect myself from folk
Rope a dope, with emotions
It's a boxing match for sure
How you learn to trust them
When you never really know 'em
Get a scope
With a special sight that look into they soul
I'm approaching precipice my cup on overflow
With a potion that bubble up from too much letting go
And don't you know
That hatred is engrossing
Fueled by paranoia
And it lead me to encroaching
People I got problems
I always admit it but that doesn't really solve 'em
Sorrow is conditional
Sorry if you sorry too
I'd be petty to the grave
But then I ask what Jesus do
And still I take a devil's route
Still I'm getting back at you
Anger only come from hurt, I know it's true
Should've spoken up when I first got abused
Instead I let it marinate like Kountry Wayne and cooking juice
This much vitriol is only hurting me, not hurting you
Pitiful

I am not a model of forgiveness
So I guess I rather stay mad
I guess I rather stay mad
Never holding grudges is a good plan
But I guess I wanna be bad
I guess I wanna be bad

I am not a model of forgiveness
So I guess I rather stay mad
I guess I rather stay mad
Never holding grudges is a good plan
But I guess I wanna be bad
I guess I wanna be bad