Yeah, I'm for real
And it's that soldier shit, you know I'm saying?
Now this one for the pain that I felt over the years
This shit ain't been the same ever since a nigga was lil'
Be too much on my brain make me wanna shed a tear
I be tripping, reminiscing but I'm thankful I'm still here
And I'm so misunderstood this that real soldier shit
I never thought I'll see the day where I could go legit
I was just on a stroll with my cuzzo tryna flip
Seller over 30 minutes he said "You need more than this"
'Cause we swangin', better have your fire
I got my fire, this shit be dangerous
I won't tell no lie before I die, I'll go out banging
Just tryna survive but this the life of a gangster
It be hard to believe that I made it this far
Made it when it was raining, boy that shit there left me scarred
Often reminiscing 'bout Deja, that shit hurt me to my heart
Know it drove my auntie crazy, 'cause she died right in her arms
And I made it to the funeral but wishing that I didn't
I been dreaming about that casket ever since I seen her in it
I ain't tryna see no casket, I ain't tryna see no sentence
My bitch don't understand me and my family in they feelings
They say I might win a Grammy, fuck a Grammy I need a million
It hurt me that I hurt you can't believe the way I did you
I really thought that we'll be married move away and have some children
And I can't even explain it, that shit be crazy
And I'm so misunderstood if I could, then I would
But I don't get it, I admit it
Pain that I'm feeling, make me wanna cry sometimes, ooh
It make me wanna cry sometimes, yeah uh
And I'm so misunderstood if I could, then I would
But I don't get it, I admit it while reminiscing
It make me cry sometimes, oh oh
Lord knows I cry sometimes
That real soldier shit though, you know that-that
That pain shit don't go no where like you know what I'm saying?
That part be temporary but it still be, ballin'
You know sometimes I be in my feelings about this shit
I'm forever a soldier, soldier life, you know I'm saying?
Thug to the bone, you know I'm saying?
