Rah - Until I Drown Lyrics

Who says life and death
Can't be spoken in the breath
Violent streaks opposing your best interest
This is not my world

Used and jaded
Too frustrated
Boost my ego
Then deflate it down
Until I drown

Playing for the thrill of being in a bad position
Caught a couple losses by submission
Made it very clear that
I'm not coming to you for permission
When I see my mother struggle
That just shows me that our vision
Of society is skewed
I'm entirely surviving
By the trials that I've proved
While denying me of comfort
So delighted to improve
Til the day I'm in dirt
You can't rob me of my pride
When there's stains on my shirt

Used and jaded
Too frustrated
Boost my ego
Then deflate it down
Until I drown

My own
Thoughts invade these walls
I've built
Without pressure I'm nothing
It's really kind of disgusting
The way I value a dollar
Instead of laughing and trusting
That things will go as intended
So many times Ive pretended
To be intact but was struggling
Because my conscience was bleeding
Into the depths of my stomach

Used and jaded
Too frustrated
Boost my ego
Then deflate it down
Until I drown