Qone ft. L - No Safe House Lyrics

It began when I was about five
My mind started catching up to my mama's lies
No surprise though
Her lies consisted of relationship bullshit
The very same doo doo that I do do now (who knew)
Who knew that the very same roof
Always held over my head
The false protection that I left all those years back
Would be the same protection that I would give
To my kids, (shut up) I don't wanna hear that
Nothing but chronic marijuana to get peelt back
These words are like a sauna on the sun
God, I feel that
I feel it burning deeper and God I feel that
Let's reminisce father of Jesus
Comin' with a thesis from when I was a fetus
Nah, I was older
Remember screaming for you
To make this all over, though
Like the shit from my mom
All the shit she used to give me and Lu
Flashback locked in a bathroom
Or in a back room
What was it that i asked you
Save us from her bad mood
Save us from her belt all her mean words
And the welts every emotional tattoo

Is there a safe home
A safe house I can come to
A safe place I can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so
Is there a safe home
A safe house we can come to
A safe place we can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so

Have you ever tried running in a dream
But your body stays frozen
Your mind struggles to manipulate the scene
But your efforts remained hopeless
Those are precisely the sentiments
I hold regarding my role in the abuse
Disregard the parade of gentlemen
It's the torrid mental minds fucks that hold true
The paradox is
She gave birth to six kids with exceptional abilities
But ended up with six out of six paying visits
To mental and correctional facilities
These words are not spoken with injurious intent
Nor are they meant as a cheap jab or stick
They are spoken with a naive hope for miraculous-ness
That I may juke past the past and for once finally live
To awaken every dawn with the aches of age in my bones
And the sensation of utter happiness
I know that I must fight within my dome for a home
That isn't safe until I ask, myself this

Is there a safe home
A safe house I can come to
A safe place I can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so
Is there a safe home
A safe house we can come to
A safe place we can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so

Don't know where just to start, so there's no way to finish
So I'm just gonna write with my heart from the beginning
Memories I fought ripped up and tore apart
Flashbacks of abuse locked up inside my vault
Closed eyes, rewind, allow one's mine to explode with thought
A safe house a seldom thought
A safe house when home alone
Fast pitch in the hallway
In a zone of our own till Mama's home
Then it's back to harsh reality tricks and picks
The amount of candy chosen equals the amount of hits
Now picture two little kids at ends wit
Crying and trying to figure out just what they did
Or do to deserve this Constantly feeling worthless
Emotions expressed and explained through sacred verses
The cycle of destruction shall no longer proceed
The generation of abuse shall stop and end with my seed
A safe house I pray to provide for her, oh yes, oh yes indeed

Is there a safe home
A safe house I can come to
A safe place I can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so
Is there a safe home
A safe house we can come to
A safe place we can run to
Thought home was supposed to
Be full of love and hugs
But it's nothing of the such, so