Prox Centauri - East Kearsley Lyrics

Whiskey to the scalp, helps me hide my insecurities
Postering like i'm a saint, enticing me are lurid things
Want to be exemplary and studious but lack the image
Focused on a million things and none of them are academic
Squandering potential, disappointment, snipped and withering
Intoxication serves to override my sensibilities
Communal drunken stupors but penchant to falter silently
Nightmarish visions always prefaced with sobriety
Dreams are contaminants festering deep the illness came
Robotrips, ganjaweed feeble attempts to kill the pain
Sedated, shambling through days as if the brother's zombified
Smile in your face but brittle, gotta keep up my facade
Jokingly deprecating turned into defeatist lore
Rotten on the inside, but what you keep repeating it for?
Crying out for intervention
My words slurred absurd to think that I would even listen

East Kearsley
Went there for collegiate life
Tumblin' through drunkenness, assumption is it breeded spite
Asphyxiated by the cords and tassels people seem to like
For maize and blue my hatred grew can I escape these fiendish rites?
Trials and tribulations but i'm faking like i'm doing fine
You can keep the sermons, wake me up when there's communion wine
Upright, head high, fearful but won't cave or welt
Cry no more young one your legacy won't pave itself

Powered through the discomfort, mortal so I ache and bruise
Ever been trapped behind the eightball after paying dues?
Happiness elusive unless i'm staggered or chasing nudes
Empty cups are validation, binge til' I can't taste the booze
Edgy, anarchistic, skipping class and breakin' rules
Oblivious, but what you're pining for is in your face ya fool
Enough with all this sucka stuff, cut the bluffs and toughen up
Cuz sparring with the man in the mirror just left my knuckles scuffed
Comprised of two bloodlines, the Smith's and the Elsy's
One gave you a heart of iron, other tools for welding
Selfish, when you succumb to all of that nightly moping
Pugilistic duties, go and fight, don't get roped in
Fires of human essence, inspired to do my best then
Bioluminescent don't quell it make hooch a vestige
You're prescient, colossus in mammalian flesh
Mama named me soldier, so you know your bravery's set

East Kearsley
Went there for collegiate life
Tumblin' through drunkenness, assumption is it breeded spite
Asphyxiated by the cords and tassels people seem to like
For maize and blue my hatred grew can I escape these fiendish rites?
Trials and tribulations but i'm faking like i'm doing fine
You can keep the sermons, wake me up when there's communion wine
Upright, head high, fearful but won't cave or welt
Cry no more young one your legacy won't pave itself
East Kearsley
Went there for collegiate life
Tumblin' through drunkenness, assumption is it breeded spite
Asphyxiated by the cords and tassels people seem to like
For maize and blue my hatred grew can I escape these fiendish rites?
Trials and tribulations but i'm faking like i'm doing fine
You can keep the sermons, wake me up when there's communion wine
Upright, head high, fearful but won't cave or welt
Cry no more young one your legacy won't pave itself