Phero Hill, J-Rican - In Between Lyrics

To whom it may concern I got some words to express
For my current state of being, there's no cure for the stress
With every moment I get closer to the end of my days
I try to navigate my life and shed some pain on the way
They say there's beauty in the struggle but I don't understand
Once a dream now it seems that my life has other plans
To say its written in the stars is optimism at its best
As I explore my inner depths for the meaning of success
I might just sell out on my word and a grab a nine to five
But when you growin' up fast you gotta vie to survive
I kept my faith up from the start 'til it was taken apart
When I equated that my art showed no sign to provide
But I just do it to express its no endeavor for fame
But still I wonder if the world will remember my name
I've grown accustomed to the pain, with no adjustment for a change
I've spilled my heart so many times I swear I've mustered up some stains, god damn

In between, yeah
I'm always feelin' in between
In between, yeah yeah
Everything is so in between
In between, in between
I'm livin' somewhere in between
In between, in between
Will I always be in between
 
Maybe I need a hiatus to help me get hydrated
All this darkness around me has got my pupils dilated
The strain in my sight is so insane that I might
Just accept the skeptic thought and simply hang up the mic
But as I, take a moment to imagine the void
I just can't fathom a path having my passion destroyed
'Cause on the tablet I wrote, just to establish some hope
But all this baggage I'm draggin' I barely manage to float
So now I'm, seekin' solace in the slightest of life
'Cause I'ive been slighted and silenced because my eyelids are tight
But with a lack of reputation the creation is real
And bein' oriental there's no expectations to fill
I'm just a, young anomaly walkin' upon an odyssey
The stress and depression is a reflection of my honesty
A passive motherfucker, this my only release
And the nirvana of my soul is all I'm hopin' to reach, so let me preach

In between, yeah
I'm always feelin' in between
In between, yeah yeah
Everything is so in between
In between, in between
I'm livin' somewhere in between
In between, in between
Will I always be in between
 
I'm just a stranger to serenity
I still battle the pain as it's my enemy
See I just wanna find truth
But as time moves, I lose my divine youth
The youth in which hope gives you vibe
Because you got time on your side
But as you develop with age
The fantasy fades, with faith only driftin' away
Still haunted by 1942
But now that forty two means fortitude
'Cause the struggle and pain that they sewed
Rendered out the founding freedom to follow my own
See I just wanna make my mama proud
I wanna I see my auntie's smile again
I swear I'm losing the feeling to feel
And though I'm broke my only focus is keepin' it real
Sincerely, Phero Hill

In between, yeah
I'm always feelin' in between
In between, yeah yeah
Everything is so in between
In between, in between
I'm livin' somewhere in between
In between, in between
Will I always be in between