Percipience - Sincerely, Monochromat Lyrics

You see, sleep is the escape
So many colors spread all over the place
Authentic smile plastered all over my face
Somewhere I've never been, I've never seen

Every morning I wake I'm stressed
What should I wear, how am I dressed
I better look my best, unless
I've prepared myself to fail this mental test

And even if they could understand
How it feels to be me, took look down at my hands
To prick yourself each week just to fit in
To hide your chest just so you can feel like a man

There's an entire part of me that can
Inhabit what it means to take a stand
That can encapsulate the feeling of some overall plan
But at the end of the day, there's only half a chance

That I won't fade away to my dreamscape
Where there is no questions of my fate
Where I am who I am
In that temporary state

Where I'm in detail, colored in and full of life
Where my soul isn't drowning in my plight
Where I find my wings and finally take flight
Until I wake up to see that I am living this life

And I'd like to see it different one day
Maybe look in the mirror with pride someday
Look up into the sky and not only see grey
Be touched by a lover, and feel okay

Don't worry about me, it's just
I can't not say just what I must
I feel the love, I feel the lust
It's only me I hate, but only me I trust

Seventeen years is
Seventeen years too long
To wait for a rainbow at the end of the rain
But still I check the weather in hopes it's gone