Ohxzy, v$hak - self sabotage freestyle Lyrics

Look
Fuck it i'm a
Killer of hearts
I'm sick from the start
I got voices in my head bro
I'm a dog and I bark
And if you leave my side I swear it'll tear me apart
I'm just being insecure cause they left me in the dark
Fuck em
Look I said i'm sicker than expected
Killed myself once Hix the ripper resurrected
Past only wanted me for flirting and for sexting
Sent a real message
And I learnt a real lesson
Love me or hate me brother i'm fine with the latter
They tried to put me in a hole but i'm climbing the ladder
Smile on my face I promise you i'm getting sadder
Questioning my self worth and if my life matters
Questioning if she gon' love me still
Cause I wouldn't, broken heart I need my heart refilled
And I shouldn't
Need to hide the love I have for you
And if you ever chose to leave me then i'm glad for you
Look
I swear i'm losing it
This love shit I ain't choosing it
Like yeah man trust it feels good
I guess I just ain't use to it
Use to the abuse
And getting hit with sudden news
About them cheating
I apologise, I got too much to lose, look
People manipulate me, i'm too nice i'm done with that
Oh ur fucking my ex girl? you have fun with that
I'm on my path to the start, and man i'm running back
I'm reborn, old Hix, with the beanie hat
I'm fucking demented i'm tapped I hear voices g
I hate myself, so I question why she loving me
And by doing that I sabotage the unity
Between us, you're good enough
I just find it hard to see
The positives, and all the love I got deposited
I'm saving it for you, you can hate me but I ain't stopping it
Dropping it the argument ain't worth losing this
That should prove I love you, cause a boy ain't really use to this
I'm ob-sessed
But also i'm de-pressed
I keep my feelings hidden like that monster in the loch ness
I hate myself too, when i'm naked when i'm topless
I'm a pill taking junkie, no money bro i'm jobless
I'm a scumbag
If I could i'd give the world to make you happy
But the world don't seem to love me, I think its because the damage
I've caused and that i've inflicted
The demon in which has risen
I'm sick I belong in prison
I hope that my pasts forgiven, look

Look
Fuck it i'm a
Killer of hearts
I'm sick from the start
I got voices in my head bro
I'm a dog and I bark
And if you leave my side I swear it'll tear me apart
I'm just being insecure cause they left me in the dark
Fuck em
Look I said i'm sicker than expected
Killed myself once Hix the ripper resurrected
Past only wanted me for flirting and for sexting
Sent a real message
And I learnt a real lesson
Love me or hate me brother i'm fine with the latter
They tried to put me in a hole but i'm climbing the ladder
Smile on my face I promise you i'm getting sadder
Questioning my self worth and if my life matters
Questioning if she gon' love me still
Cause I wouldn't, broken heart I need my heart refilled
And I shouldn't
Need to hide the love I have for you
And if you ever chose to leave me then i'm glad for you
Look
I swear i'm losing it
This love shit I ain't choosing it
Like yeah man trust it feels good
I guess I just ain't use to it
Use to the abuse
And getting hit with sudden news
About them cheating
I apologise, I got too much to lose, look
People manipulate me, i'm too nice i'm done with that
Oh ur fucking my ex girl? you have fun with that
I'm on my path to the start, and man i'm running back
I'm reborn, old Hix, with the beanie hat
I'm fucking demented i'm tapped I hear voices g
I hate myself, so I question why she loving me
And by doing that I sabotage the unity
Between us, you're good enough
I just find it hard to see
The positives, and all the love I got deposited
I'm saving it for you, you can hate me but I ain't stopping it
Dropping it the argument ain't worth losing this
That should prove I love you, cause a boy ain't really use to this
I'm ob-sessed
But also i'm de-pressed
I keep my feelings hidden like that monster in the loch ness
I hate myself too, when i'm naked when i'm topless
I'm a pill taking junkie, no money bro i'm jobless
I'm a scumbag
If I could i'd give the world to make you happy
But the world don't seem to love me, I think its because the damage
I've caused and that i've inflicted
The demon in which has risen
I'm sick I belong in prison
I hope that my pasts forgiven, look