Nomrah, Ashtin Larold - Would You? Lyrics

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Tell me why I'm so used to feeling this way
Tell me why nothing I do heals this pain
Tell me why my biggest idol died that day
Tell me why I hope and pray to make it someday
Why'd I pour my heart in this? Why am I still doubted
Why do I lack confidence? Why do I lack power to shout it
Why do I have to beg for views? Why do I always beg for streams
Why do I always watch the news just to see hatred walk the streets
I'm praying to a god that I'm not even sure exists
I'm beating with a heart that's full of scars and hurt and cysts
Pain from past relations has me wonderin' if you care
Smiles and fake elation has me falling for your stare
Your eyes, they look like diamonds, and your smile's a shining pearl
Your hands, they get to sliding and we blockin' out the world
And for a split second, I can block out all the pain
And for a split second, I take comfort in your name

If I try
If I fall
If I die
Would you care at all
If I cry
When you call
If I lie
Would you care at all

Aye
Yeah
I been high since 6 o' clock in the mornin'
My mind's eye won't open, it's lying dormant
I'm tryna bury these feelings I have
Why am I feeling so sad?
Oh well, fuck it, it's not important
I can't answer the "why", only the "how"
As for the where, I'm somewhere high in the clouds
Tryna escape, this shit been draggin' me down
I'm trapped inside the matrix but I don't wanna get out
I've been so low for so long
I don't know where to go now
I sold my fuckin' soul now
And I pour my whole heart in these songs
I don't know where to go now (Yeah)
I sold my fuckin' soul now