Nick Rogers - The Darker Side of Me Lyrics

I was only six years old when I said fuck the system
(Ayo fuck the system)
Only I didn't say fuck still you get the picture
By second grade domestication was their main intention
And by second grade I'd seen the grain and I just went against it
By middle school If I ain't fall in line they'd reprimand me
(Bitch)
Basically brand me with the idea that I need a Plan B
Fuck it
Set my sights upon the Grammies
Prove who I can be
Sleeping on me pop an ambi-
Intentionally different
And the plan was fully scripted
And they'd slowly realize
Oh shit he's gifted
Sorry that's my inner indigo child that's speaking
Turn me to a sinner that's finna go wild he could
In high school all I cared about was music and the weekends
Bitches and the reefer or liquor I guess it depends
On the vibe and how everybody was feeling
After I graduated that lifestyle started revealing

The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave
The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave

Victim mindset
They ask me nick you signed yet
And shit I'm dying to say yes
But I'd be lying I guess
Momma need the money
Mental health is slipping
And at the bottom of the bottle
All you doing's sipping
Bad omens in my daily tryna scew the mission
Bad thoughts in my psyche just carbon emissions
In my ecosystem
Fuck
Landlord tryna seize the house
They gon' repo this shit
They tryna bring the darkness out of me
It never phase me cuz I'm meditating hourly
Dedicated now to be the greatest later in this game
They can't teach you how to be iconic but it's in the name
(Icon Nick)
Slow it down
Used to think I'd know it now
Oh shit it's going down
Said slow it down
Showing up and we showing out
Lucifer in my sub conscience focusing on bringing out

The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave
The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave

When I was just a senior
I felt like a fucking failure
You couldn't tell by my demeanor
I had my sights set high
But the life I lived didn't follow that narrative
I was at the bottom of the barrel
But not excepting the peril
Was motherfucking imperative
I was already a truant but I was eighteen
So the system couldn't do shit
But I was just screaming out fuck it
Cuz I knew the school system wasn't conducive
To success in the way that I wanted it
Like bigger than this fucking continent
I was only 13 when I decided this world was mine for the conquering
But half a decade later and I was still sitting up late in the basement
My parents almost fucking kicked me out
Guess they didn't know what this was about
Fuck it I put all my problems aside
On the top shelf sitting next to my pride
Stuck with the circle I knew was down for the ride
Down to for the ride
(Down for the motherfucking ride)
And I never took a fucking day off
So when I hopped on the plane to L.A
And heard Katy perry say I flow like a god
I knew that all this work would pay off
So when the voices inside of my head
Start telling me I'm better off dead
I ain't never gonna let em win
They just begging me to give in to the

The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave
The darker side of me
The darker side of me
If I don't try to be
Better than I was yesterday
I should just die and leave