Music Art Lti, Behind the Cover - When I´m alive Lyrics

If I find another way
Why will I follow him?
I try to understand
What is right or wrong to do now
My memories spin in my head
Above is a sky shining
Why are my thoughts without light?
Why do i know where to walk?
If I don't walk there
I destroy all my feelings
Why do I still feel something?
Why are they still coming?
If i do in the other way?
God, can you stop my suffering?
In this night I thought: I see
Why this consumes me?
If i die, when i'm alive
If i'm the only live
I'm the newest beggar
I waste your time with my mind
It's time to make a change