Michael Nuguid - Playing With My Own Hopes Lyrics

It sucks to see you crushin' on someone else
It kinda hurts my soul but I'm not God I'm not in control
I'm not in control no, I'm not in control
I should prolly let it go before it disintegrates my bones
But how can I when I'm playing with my own hopes, yeah
When I'm playing with my own hopes, yeah
When I'm playing with my own hopes, aye

Hopes keep tellin' me you could still be mine
I can't decide if that's a truth, or a lie
Back and forth, with my mind
Thinkin' of, what we could be
Wishful thinking's a, dangerous drug to take and I don't know what to believe
But I'm playing with my own hopes, I'm playing with my own hopes
I should let it go but I'm playing with my own hopes
I should let it go but I'm playing with my own hopes
I'm playing with my own hopes

I do miss it when we'd call each other
play a couple games and watch a movie, or show together
Sometimes I would have to wake you up cuz you would fall asleep
Or I'd come back and spook you moments like that made everything better
Even if we're not talkin' like we used to, if I were asked to pick a teammate
I'd prolly choose you, I really did mean it when I said I don't wanna lose you
Cuz I don't wanna lose you woo
I sent you these compliments they were genuine
Every single one of em I meant what I said
I wrote you a note and I was scared to read you it but I know if I didn't read you it
At that right time it'd be regret
At times I took a risk and I question, if that is what, ruined our friendship
There was a time when it felt like, water sank in our boat
I tried to keep it afloat
Maybe I failed now I'm lost where we're at now I'm stuck

Hopes keep tellin' me you could still be mine
I can't decide if that's a truth, or a lie
Back and forth, with my mind
Thinkin' of, what we could be
Wishful thinking's a, dangerous drug to take and I don't know what to believe
But I'm playing with my own hopes, I'm playing with my own hopes
I should let it go but I'm playing with my own hopes
I should let it go but I'm playing with my own hopes
I'm playing with my own hopes

I didn't care what others think of you
it never changed my view when they tried to put you down
I felt bad and tried to be a man but I was scared to make a sound
Some tried to call you names and make fun of you they were clowns
They didn't see what I see when I looked at you, I saw
A beautiful girl and I thank the Lord for giving the opportunity
To have meet you in this world
If you're hearin' this I wanted you to know that
Remember on New Years you told me 'bout the job
You were thinkin' of gettin cuz of money
Then I talked about real life you tried to stop me I just really hope that
My words had left a positive impact
Even if there was a sense of hurt without you even knowin' it
I just hope you find the love that you're searchin' for
I just hope you find the love that you're searchin' for
And it might tear me to my core but that's okay even if my

Hopes keep tellin' me you could still be mine
I can't decide if that's a truth, or a lie
If that's not true, it's alright
Thinkin' of, what we could be
But it's time to, move on that's a tough one to take but it's best for me if I'm
Playing with my own hopes
I'm playing with my own hopes gotta let it go when I'm playing with my own hopes
Gotta let it go when I'm playing with my own hopes
Playing with my own
Hopes keep tellin'
Hopes keep tellin' me you could still be mine
I can't decide if that's a truth, or a lie
If that's not true, it's alright
Thinkin' of, what we could be
But it's time to, move on that's a tough one to take but it's best for me if I'm
Playing with my own hopes
I'm playing with my own hopes gotta let it go when I'm playing with my own hopes
Gotta let it go when I'm playing with my own hopes
Playing with my own hopes