Metalecalec, Hanz - All the time Lyrics

I'm alright till I'm alone, but lately that's all the time, right
Polishing my star, been trying to make it shine bright
I been in a few cities, that I used to spend the time in
All the good times, I wanna know where it all went
It be feeling weird now, they be wanting pics wimme, so I guess I'm here now
But I be feeling like I'm not shit
Everything boxed in
Looking up to people but I'm knowing that I'm not them
Umm
I really should have blew up by now
Maybe it ain't time yet, brew up for now
My grandmother thinking, I wish that he would visit more
Hardly every calls, he forgot, or he didn't or
Maybe he's just working, or he did ignore it
She'll understand later, but it bothers me
Am I still the same, deep down, well probably
Things tend to change, with this life, very commonly
I'm in a frenzy, gotta I'd for it
Land of the envy, way before it
I would dream, and think of things, so purely
The things that I'm attaining, got me thinking that it's surely
Damn
But it don't feel magical
Really at this point everything feels practical
Damn
Out of touch with the old me
I really tried to call but he saying he don't know me

Am I going insane
Is it wrong that I feel it
I feel it all the time
Tell me am I wasting all my life
Don't know If I should go
To all these places yet it never feels like home
I think I lost control

I'm in my room, my homies in the other one
I just got a message, got another, then another one
Omg you here, I'm knowing there's a fee to it
They'll be pulling up, if I really just agree to it
I'm 23, why I'm feeling like this
They just wanna love me, they acting like the nicest
Women that I've ever seen, wonder what they see in me
I would lose control, no one knows, but knowing me
Shit
When I used to holla, my words didn't mean shit
And what they used to tell me, I would be shit
Now I'm flying over them, while eating sea chips
Tried to share my dreams, but they never could ever see shit
It's depressing, but I pulled myself out of it
Like we playing online, you can really add em in
Suspended adolescence
Swimming in a pool where they really breaking necks in
Really got me breathless
You should know it
The voices in my head now
I think it's crazy that people just want me dead now
I fear death, at least I'm being honest
Here while you listen, no time to be modest
Umm, what about last night
Was out of Character, was I in my past life
When the liquor pours, it's hard to act right
They saying that it's cool, well is that right

Am I going insane
Is it wrong that I feel it
I feel it all the time
Tell me am I wasting all my life
Don't know If I should go
To all these places yet it never feels like home
I think I lost control