Mekhi November - Apache Catastrophe Lyrics

Like my wine 99 anywhere from sweet to dry
Got a fine girl beside me I love to spend my time with, a dime
She independent don't need none of mine
She ignites me
Make me wanna write a rhyme bout her
Kind and she focused
Help me get this cash then make me wanna blow it
Trigger finger fast 9 hammer gotta tote it
I been in my bag yeah
Niggas quick to blast now
I pop a pill for anxiety fuck a doctor self prescribe em
I never kill all my demons but I need a lavender heart medal just for tryin
Some of my secrets make me wanna kill a nigga
Swear to God It's murder when I find em
All blood ain't family
Invalidated my feelings my agony
Misunderstanded me
I deal with depression I'm crushed by the gravity I need some sanity
Numb to the pain all I feel is apathy shit a catastrophe
A fuckin calamity
Negative self destructive thoughts and memories
Can't get that shit out my brain
I put some tree and a 2 for $6 of E&J
I'm my system fore I go Insane
I went a hunnid
For people who only gave me like 45, 50 back and it drained me
Put some more Mary Jane in me
Runnin from my hurricanes
Ran so far now they some typhoons
Shit don't never away
I been livin like Im finna die soon
Mama see it in my face
Hug me reassure me that she got me
I'd be gone without a trace
If I ain't have my mama love to stop me
Runnin from my hurricanes
Ran so far now they some typhoons
Shit don't never away
I been feelin like Im finna die soon
Mama see it in my face
Hug me reassure me that she got me
I'd be gone without a trace
If I ain't have my mama love to stop me
I was a happy lil nigga till I got molested two times
I grew to hate niggas who had they fathers around em
Cus I never hang out with mine
Granny ask me how Im doin I tell her I got it
I'm good I'm okay I'll be fine
She tell I be lyin
She send me letters with verses
That help me keep faith on my mind when I'm in bind
Tired of dragging this hatred and anger with me all the time
Tired a understatement I be losing these battles
These demons they fuck up my blinds every time
I feel alone in this bitch
I be smoking to cope I be sippin to stay out my mind
My shorty gon love me to death, but peace still hard as the fuck to find

Like my wine 99 anywhere from sweet to dry
Got a fine girl beside me I love to spend my time with, a dime
She independent don't need none of mine
She ignites me
Make me wanna write a rhyme bout her
Kind and she focused
Help me get this cash then make me wanna blow it
Trigger finger fast 9 hammer gotta tote it
I been in my bag yeah
Niggas quick to blast now
I pop a pill for anxiety fuck a doctor self prescribe em
I never kill all my demons but I need a lavender heart medal just for tryin
Some of my secrets make me wanna kill a nigga
Swear to God It's murder when I find em
All blood ain't family
Invalidated my feelings my agony
Misunderstanded me
I deal with depression I'm crushed by the gravity I need some sanity
Numb to the pain all I feel is apathy shit a catastrophe
A fuckin calamity
Negative self destructive thoughts and memories
Can't get that shit out my brain
I put some tree and a 2 for $6 of E&J
I'm my system fore I go Insane
I went a hunnid
For people who only gave me like 45, 50 back and it drained me
Put some more Mary Jane in me
Runnin from my hurricanes
Ran so far now they some typhoons
Shit don't never away
I been livin like Im finna die soon
Mama see it in my face
Hug me reassure me that she got me
I'd be gone without a trace
If I ain't have my mama love to stop me
Runnin from my hurricanes
Ran so far now they some typhoons
Shit don't never away
I been feelin like Im finna die soon
Mama see it in my face
Hug me reassure me that she got me
I'd be gone without a trace
If I ain't have my mama love to stop me
I was a happy lil nigga till I got molested two times
I grew to hate niggas who had they fathers around em
Cus I never hang out with mine
Granny ask me how Im doin I tell her I got it
I'm good I'm okay I'll be fine
She tell I be lyin
She send me letters with verses
That help me keep faith on my mind when I'm in bind
Tired of dragging this hatred and anger with me all the time
Tired a understatement I be losing these battles
These demons they fuck up my blinds every time
I feel alone in this bitch
I be smoking to cope I be sippin to stay out my mind
My shorty gon love me to death, but peace still hard as the fuck to find