Marina Alexis Lace - Everything I've Always Hated Lyrics

Should I really care
What they are thinking
About my drinking game
Or if I'm drowning
Why won't you let me be my way
Always choosing dare
Over truth when I'm playing
'Cause everything's the same
As soon as it's morning

My body says I need to quit
My bottle says I shouldn't quit
It's hard to break from my habits
I keep coming back to my spirits

I am everything I've always hated
I've become all I have always hated
This is not me
Someone help me
I can't save myself from me

Trynna kill my pain
Nothing else is working
Don't know what I will gain
But at least I'm not crying
Am I slowly losing my way
I've tried and tried in vain
To make things better
But life feels like acid rain
When I am sober

I like when things become easy
I like when I'm feeling happy
I like when things become funny
I like escaping reality

I am everything I've always hated
I've become all I have always hated
This is not me
Someone help me
I can't save myself from me

Don't wanna worry anybody
Maybe tomorrow will be better for me
Tonight I'm pouring beer on my wounds
Yes I'm pouring beer on my wounds

I am everything I've always hated
I've become all I have always hated
This is not me
Someone help me
I can't save myself from me