M-Hunt - Beautiful Nightmares Lyrics

Why you keep on askin me if I'm okay
After all the shit I been through
Is it cause you really care bout me
Or you fuckin think it's your duty
And that's what your supposed to do
Don't test me dude, I'm not here for assessment
So stop askin me questions
I've been degraded all my life
So we don't gotta make my next sentence sound like a thesis
Cause the moral to this story is I'm mentally paraplegic
I get crippled in my own mind
And I go hide
Why you think it's funny to risk my life
My arm has been cut up ten or more times
I got scars you can see from a yard away
And you got no fines
Your biggest issue is your car troubles
Let me go and get mines
Cause when you start up my ignition
I'll just blow up
I said I go and get mines
I done been quiet for too long
I don't play victim
But when a child getting bullied
And the judges poor dictum
Makes him seem dumb as dickheads
I tell em to go fuckin lick them
Yeah, and I don't wanna hear no shit
Cause motherfuck it's evident
I still got my youthful rage inside me
Nah, I ain't delicate
And if I used to be I'll be damned to shit
If I am now
Cause I been backed into a corner
By pussies, I hear the cats meow
And if you think I'm dissin if the shoe fits fuckin wear it
Like I do my heart on my sleeve
When I write these fuckin lyrics
And if you don't hear the pain inside my pen
At this point
I'll grab my balls and walk away like the champ and then drop this joint
Put it out, it's smokin
Almost like a fuckin chimney
I done had it up to hear with all these tough talk fuckin sissies
No one gets me and I don't expect them to take their time to get me
But don't judge me if you don't know the shit I've dealt with privately
Yeah, I've been bullied, I've been down, dumb and made mistakes
But I'm only human and I'm man enough to face em today
And if I did you wrongly you ain't deserve it and I'm sorry
But if you fucked with me growin up
I now say fuck you and proudly
No one ever wonders what my side of the story was
If I was doin aii, they don't care they just
Laugh with everyone and turn on you as well
For most of ya life beautiful nightmares become a living fuckin hell
No one to even wish you well with a fuckin wishing well, shit
Now this anger all pouring out all at once
Till I'm lethargic
And I can finally put my head to rest
Cause my problems I fixed em
But I'll forgive you all and move on cause at the end of the day
Man, it's dumb
And if I get killed for this shit I'm just another stat in the system
Sickens me when all I see is these children killin themselves
Cause of some careless fuckin bastards that should be burned in hell
I wish I could've helped em
Get over the arrogance of you bitches
And the psychological damage that you fuckin hit with precision
We just lost another human being
A teen not too long ago
Jumped in front of a train
RIP Saint Joes Student
I didn't even know your ass
But I really done shedded tears cause
I've seen men get cut in half by others
When they twist your gears
And I feel so bad
You what makes me want to start a foundation
God this world so sad
Maybe this why we all got some virus and quarantined
Maybe this is why we should probably think way before we speak
And I know if this shit happend to me
You'd probably laugh, throw a party
Then give a speech
But dawg; what if that was yo kid
Gettin scraped up by them coroners off the streets
Or hung themselves with they big brothers belt
And the government doesn't set you free
Or what if another child caught in a hard place
Hard to reach the EMTs
What if your family really knew what y'all did to me
What if my ass had been buried just bout six feet deep
I just wanna help out everybody who's been like me

Why you keep on askin me if I'm okay
After all the shit I been through
Is it cause you really care bout me
Or you fuckin think it's your duty
And that's what your supposed to do
Don't test me dude, I'm not here for assessment
So stop askin me questions
I've been degraded all my life
So we don't gotta make my next sentence sound like a thesis
Cause the moral to this story is I'm mentally paraplegic
I get crippled in my own mind
And I go hide
Why you think it's funny to risk my life
My arm has been cut up ten or more times
I got scars you can see from a yard away
And you got no fines
Your biggest issue is your car troubles
Let me go and get mines
Cause when you start up my ignition
I'll just blow up
I said I go and get mines
I done been quiet for too long
I don't play victim
But when a child getting bullied
And the judges poor dictum
Makes him seem dumb as dickheads
I tell em to go fuckin lick them
Yeah, and I don't wanna hear no shit
Cause motherfuck it's evident
I still got my youthful rage inside me
Nah, I ain't delicate
And if I used to be I'll be damned to shit
If I am now
Cause I been backed into a corner
By pussies, I hear the cats meow
And if you think I'm dissin if the shoe fits fuckin wear it
Like I do my heart on my sleeve
When I write these fuckin lyrics
And if you don't hear the pain inside my pen
At this point
I'll grab my balls and walk away like the champ and then drop this joint
Put it out, it's smokin
Almost like a fuckin chimney
I done had it up to hear with all these tough talk fuckin sissies
No one gets me and I don't expect them to take their time to get me
But don't judge me if you don't know the shit I've dealt with privately
Yeah, I've been bullied, I've been down, dumb and made mistakes
But I'm only human and I'm man enough to face em today
And if I did you wrongly you ain't deserve it and I'm sorry
But if you fucked with me growin up
I now say fuck you and proudly
No one ever wonders what my side of the story was
If I was doin aii, they don't care they just
Laugh with everyone and turn on you as well
For most of ya life beautiful nightmares become a living fuckin hell
No one to even wish you well with a fuckin wishing well, shit
Now this anger all pouring out all at once
Till I'm lethargic
And I can finally put my head to rest
Cause my problems I fixed em
But I'll forgive you all and move on cause at the end of the day
Man, it's dumb
And if I get killed for this shit I'm just another stat in the system
Sickens me when all I see is these children killin themselves
Cause of some careless fuckin bastards that should be burned in hell
I wish I could've helped em
Get over the arrogance of you bitches
And the psychological damage that you fuckin hit with precision
We just lost another human being
A teen not too long ago
Jumped in front of a train
RIP Saint Joes Student
I didn't even know your ass
But I really done shedded tears cause
I've seen men get cut in half by others
When they twist your gears
And I feel so bad
You what makes me want to start a foundation
God this world so sad
Maybe this why we all got some virus and quarantined
Maybe this is why we should probably think way before we speak
And I know if this shit happend to me
You'd probably laugh, throw a party
Then give a speech
But dawg; what if that was yo kid
Gettin scraped up by them coroners off the streets
Or hung themselves with they big brothers belt
And the government doesn't set you free
Or what if another child caught in a hard place
Hard to reach the EMTs
What if your family really knew what y'all did to me
What if my ass had been buried just bout six feet deep
I just wanna help out everybody who's been like me